I'm really excited about my future
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I'm really excited about my future
I have two upcoming court dates with five charges total, including assault causing harm. But even if I get five convictions, my life isn't over. I think my life is only beginning now. My life isn't going to end on March 6th. I'll be named and shamed in the paper but I did the crime, and people will forget about it in time if I stay on track. What's done is done. I can't change the past but I can change the future. Rule #1: no alcohol.
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Some things I'm grateful for today
My parents letting me live in a nice house and eat the food they buy for €150/wk. I'd probably be in a homeless hostel without them. For visiting me in hospital, for helping me with my legal issues.
My best friend for sticking with me even though I'm a drama llama and struggle to stay sober while he's several years clean.
My youngest sister for saying she'll speak to me again when I have a year sober.
My older sisters for being civil with me and giving my parents lifts to the psych ward occasionally.
My cat for the cuddles. The neighbourhood black and white cat for loving me unconditionally even though he doesn't understand my drunk days
Ireland, for having affordable tuition fees for EU students.For providing me with free healthcare. For not throwing me in prison yet.
The staff of the psych ward including my consultant even though he wanted me to stay longer than I was prepared to. Grateful to patients for being friendly and reciprocating borrowed cigarettes. Grateful for being given access to CBT. Grateful I have to get sodium bloods twice a week which will keep me in check.
Grateful my town has lunch time AA meetings three times a week and they always seem welcoming when I'm not paranoid.
Grateful for SR, that I have a place I can ask for help 24/7.
Grateful to my probation officer for giving me his time and asking the judge for an adjournment so we can meet again and he can write a proper report.
Grateful I'm sober right now. Grateful God gave me some potential and it hasn't all gone to crap after years of abusing my mind, body and soul.
My parents letting me live in a nice house and eat the food they buy for €150/wk. I'd probably be in a homeless hostel without them. For visiting me in hospital, for helping me with my legal issues.
My best friend for sticking with me even though I'm a drama llama and struggle to stay sober while he's several years clean.
My youngest sister for saying she'll speak to me again when I have a year sober.
My older sisters for being civil with me and giving my parents lifts to the psych ward occasionally.
My cat for the cuddles. The neighbourhood black and white cat for loving me unconditionally even though he doesn't understand my drunk days
Ireland, for having affordable tuition fees for EU students.For providing me with free healthcare. For not throwing me in prison yet.
The staff of the psych ward including my consultant even though he wanted me to stay longer than I was prepared to. Grateful to patients for being friendly and reciprocating borrowed cigarettes. Grateful for being given access to CBT. Grateful I have to get sodium bloods twice a week which will keep me in check.
Grateful my town has lunch time AA meetings three times a week and they always seem welcoming when I'm not paranoid.
Grateful for SR, that I have a place I can ask for help 24/7.
Grateful to my probation officer for giving me his time and asking the judge for an adjournment so we can meet again and he can write a proper report.
Grateful I'm sober right now. Grateful God gave me some potential and it hasn't all gone to crap after years of abusing my mind, body and soul.
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There's a lot to be grateful for Freedom.
Your post made me really happy. And, I'm excited about your future too.
You have a lot to offer here Freedom. You really do.
Grateful to be sober Freedom.
I can't live without it.
Your post made me really happy. And, I'm excited about your future too.
You have a lot to offer here Freedom. You really do.
Grateful to be sober Freedom.
I can't live without it.
Giving up is NOT an option.
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Originally Posted by freedomfries 
Some things I'm grateful for today
My parents letting me live in a nice house and eat the food they buy for €150/wk. I'd probably be in a homeless hostel without them. For visiting me in hospital, for helping me with my legal issues.
My best friend for sticking with me even though I'm a drama llama and struggle to stay sober while he's several years clean.
My youngest sister for saying she'll speak to me again when I have a year sober.
My older sisters for being civil with me and giving my parents lifts to the psych ward occasionally.
My cat for the cuddles. The neighbourhood black and white cat for loving me unconditionally even though he doesn't understand my drunk days
Ireland, for having affordable tuition fees for EU students.For providing me with free healthcare. For not throwing me in prison yet.
The staff of the psych ward including my consultant even though he wanted me to stay longer than I was prepared to. Grateful to patients for being friendly and reciprocating borrowed cigarettes. Grateful for being given access to CBT. Grateful I have to get sodium bloods twice a week which will keep me in check.
Grateful my town has lunch time AA meetings three times a week and they always seem welcoming when I'm not paranoid.
Grateful for SR, that I have a place I can ask for help 24/7.
Grateful to my probation officer for giving me his time and asking the judge for an adjournment so we can meet again and he can write a proper report.
Grateful I'm sober right now. Grateful God gave me some potential and it hasn't all gone to crap after years of abusing my mind, body and soul.
My parents letting me live in a nice house and eat the food they buy for €150/wk. I'd probably be in a homeless hostel without them. For visiting me in hospital, for helping me with my legal issues.
My best friend for sticking with me even though I'm a drama llama and struggle to stay sober while he's several years clean.
My youngest sister for saying she'll speak to me again when I have a year sober.
My older sisters for being civil with me and giving my parents lifts to the psych ward occasionally.
My cat for the cuddles. The neighbourhood black and white cat for loving me unconditionally even though he doesn't understand my drunk days
Ireland, for having affordable tuition fees for EU students.For providing me with free healthcare. For not throwing me in prison yet.
The staff of the psych ward including my consultant even though he wanted me to stay longer than I was prepared to. Grateful to patients for being friendly and reciprocating borrowed cigarettes. Grateful for being given access to CBT. Grateful I have to get sodium bloods twice a week which will keep me in check.
Grateful my town has lunch time AA meetings three times a week and they always seem welcoming when I'm not paranoid.
Grateful for SR, that I have a place I can ask for help 24/7.
Grateful to my probation officer for giving me his time and asking the judge for an adjournment so we can meet again and he can write a proper report.
Grateful I'm sober right now. Grateful God gave me some potential and it hasn't all gone to crap after years of abusing my mind, body and soul.
You can do this. Just keep going with this gratitude, and take care of yourself. Let other people help you do that. You have a LOT of people pulling for you, including me, and I hope you never forget that.
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Looking forward to AA tomorrow afternoon if my anxiety allows it. Sometimes it's safer to just stay in the house and avoid triggers. I hate sharing in AA but I'll practice a little what I want to say. I'll arrive early and leave late. I'll really take a shot at this AA thing. Even if the steps aren't for me, I can benefit from the fellowship.
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My friend normally hosts an NA meeting Thursday night but he's had his phone switched off since Tuesday morning. I dunno would it be wrong to log in to see if he attends on his laptop or if I should just respect him going off grid. I'm sure he'll be in contact soon. He does this when he's stressed, and with losing his mother last year and stuff ..
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Originally Posted by MLD51
This just about made me cry (in a good way).
You can do this. Just keep going with this gratitude, and take care of yourself. Let other people help you do that. You have a LOT of people pulling for you, including me, and I hope you never forget that.
You can do this. Just keep going with this gratitude, and take care of yourself. Let other people help you do that. You have a LOT of people pulling for you, including me, and I hope you never forget that.
GO FF!!!!!
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Originally Posted by freedomfries
Looking forward to AA tomorrow afternoon if my anxiety allows it. Sometimes it's safer to just stay in the house and avoid triggers. I hate sharing in AA but I'll practice a little what I want to say. I'll arrive early and leave late. I'll really take a shot at this AA thing. Even if the steps aren't for me, I can benefit from the fellowship.
You need to go to the meetings, I think.
s xx
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Originally Posted by venuscat
But you are on naltrexone now, and that makes a difference.
You need to go to the meetings, I think. s xx
You need to go to the meetings, I think.
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I chatted a lot with my mother today. I couldn't relax when my parents visited me in the psych ward visiting room because I could hear people talking in the courtyard and my dumb brain was hearing them mocking our conversation even though that's unlikely. Nice to have a chat in the quietness of home. I got up to speed with my siblings' careers and relationships and stuff. They're all happy and successful. That could be my future.
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