13 years since i posted - week 6 now
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13 years since i posted - week 6 now
Hi,
Its been 13 years since i posted here since then i managed 3 blocks of 1 month sober, this is the third and im on the 6th week. I havent been to aa or any other groups but i feel i need some external encouragement as doing this alone with thoughts knocking around my head without a vent or any validation is not helpful.
I feel pretty good my main annoyance is the brain fuzz, feels like im being rewired with a low frequency hum which has been constant for the past 2 weeks. Im not sure if this is common, its a bit like tinnitus.
Im having to remind myself what a mess i was in before i got sober, begging myself to stop, aching organs, numb fingers and toes, promising every time this was the last. Im grateful for these calm, clean and peaceful days but i know need to work out how to live sober. Anyways, good to be back.
Its been 13 years since i posted here since then i managed 3 blocks of 1 month sober, this is the third and im on the 6th week. I havent been to aa or any other groups but i feel i need some external encouragement as doing this alone with thoughts knocking around my head without a vent or any validation is not helpful.
I feel pretty good my main annoyance is the brain fuzz, feels like im being rewired with a low frequency hum which has been constant for the past 2 weeks. Im not sure if this is common, its a bit like tinnitus.
Im having to remind myself what a mess i was in before i got sober, begging myself to stop, aching organs, numb fingers and toes, promising every time this was the last. Im grateful for these calm, clean and peaceful days but i know need to work out how to live sober. Anyways, good to be back.
back Shaby. 6 weeks sober is a good start.
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Originally Posted by Shaby 
need to work out how to live sober.
Then of course, there seems to be a nostalgia of looking back and thinking how nice it would be to settle back with a drink. We can be lured back thinking it would be nice, but we are imagining this happening in a non existent perfect world where alcoholism never happens. Yes, it probably would be nice if we were never addicted and could control ourselves after we take that first drink. What got me through those thoughts was that I always remembered that I was an an alcoholic and that I would always be one. Not what I would have asked for, but I had drawn the short straw and this was for life.
I never consciously thought about how to live sober; Living just happens. I kept my focus on staying sober; that was all. Sometimes I think getting sober was the best thing that ever happened in my life, but after I got sober, I did even better things than getting sober, but I never could have done them without staying sober. If you want to learn how to live sober, you first have to learn how to stay sober. One thing at a time.
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I have come to conclude that there is a type of alcoholic for whom the only hope of recovery is complete submission to Alcoholics Anonymous. As distasteful as that may sound, or however tempted you might be to scoff at that proposition, I hope you will keep an open mind about the possibility that you may be one of those types, like me. Feel free to PM me if you want to chat more about that.
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Welcome back, Shaby!
Support is very important.
This place surely saved my sobriety and more.
I don't remember exactly how long brain fog lasted, but it eventually passed.
Make sure you are well hydrated and get enough sleep. It helps.
Best of luck to you.
Keep posting.
Support is very important.
This place surely saved my sobriety and more.
I don't remember exactly how long brain fog lasted, but it eventually passed.
Make sure you are well hydrated and get enough sleep. It helps.
Best of luck to you.
Keep posting.
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