Long term damage
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Long term damage
Hi everyone, just wanted to post here about some things I have been thinking about, mainly around the long term damage my ex has done to me. It will heal but there are certain things which unfortunately never leave me.
1) I know so much about alcoholism and family disease nature of it now, I can write a thesis on it. Being armed with that knowledge was what lead to me leaving him but honestly, I am a bit annoyed I uave brainspace for all of this.
2) I can't just have "fun" around alcohol anymore. With my known friends, sure because I know them already but thinking ahead to dating, am I going to be easily triggered? Maybe it is a good thing now I know what to look out for.
3) Lost connections from focusing alot of time on him. It isn't easy making new friends as you get older. I can argue those connections were not all that if I already lost them but still.
4) The impact on my mental health. I have somewhat accepted that my mental health will never really be quite the same again. I can manage it better and hell I have not needed therapy/ time off/ medication in over a year but it will be there lingering.
Sigh. Whilst for the most part I really am okay, reading my old threads tonight makes me want to shake the girl who posted here in 2019.
1) I know so much about alcoholism and family disease nature of it now, I can write a thesis on it. Being armed with that knowledge was what lead to me leaving him but honestly, I am a bit annoyed I uave brainspace for all of this.
2) I can't just have "fun" around alcohol anymore. With my known friends, sure because I know them already but thinking ahead to dating, am I going to be easily triggered? Maybe it is a good thing now I know what to look out for.
3) Lost connections from focusing alot of time on him. It isn't easy making new friends as you get older. I can argue those connections were not all that if I already lost them but still.
4) The impact on my mental health. I have somewhat accepted that my mental health will never really be quite the same again. I can manage it better and hell I have not needed therapy/ time off/ medication in over a year but it will be there lingering.
Sigh. Whilst for the most part I really am okay, reading my old threads tonight makes me want to shake the girl who posted here in 2019.
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