FreeOwl

Today is a heavy anniversary. I will light a candle and think of the fond memories..... but also I will mourn the loss of my kid sister. She died at 28 years old. A disease of despair. She drank herself to death. Probably, there were also drugs involved, though my folks have yet to even share with me the results of the autopsy and toxicology reports.

I had set some boundaries with her several months prior to her passing. As a result, I hadn't spoken with her in months. I am glad the last time I did see her, I was able to give her a hug.... though is was a bittersweet hug as she had been drunk at the time.

We tried to get through to her.

My parents tried everything they possibly could to help her. She'd been very close to finally agreeing to go to rehab....

And then her light was snuffed from this plane of existence and she left us.

She's still with us, walks the forest and the beach with us.....

I miss my sister.

I'm grateful for my sobriety and for being free of drug addictions.

I hope you are, too.

The gift of sobriety is the gift of life.

biminiblue

This is a super important tragic post. Thank you for posting it and may you find some peace today.

Anna

FreeOwl, I'm glad you are sober, too. The loss of your sister a year ago, at such a young age, must have been so difficult for you. I hope you have a peaceful day with warm memories of your sister.

Mizz

I am truly sorry for your loss, FreeOwl.

sortofhomecomin

I'm sorry about your sister. It just goes to show that those of us who post on this and similar forums, and who attend AA/Lifering meetings, are the lucky ones, even though it might not feel like it at times.

Libby06

I'm sorry for your loss free owl. Deaths of despair are truly tragic. I will be thinking of you today.

CBS62

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing, as difficult as it is. We are here for you and glad you are sober. Hold on to all the good memories.

tursiops999

Wishing you peace today, FreeOwl.

nez

I can't help but to believe that you are leading the life your sister wants for you. Sending ripples of peace and serenity your way.

FreeOwl

thank you for that....

and thank you all for your thoughts and kind messages.

WindPines

I am so sorry for your loss. You are absolutely right - the gift of sobriety is the gift of life!

REM700

My condolences for your loss. Relish in the fond memories.

stickyone

not trying to thread jack. But his hit me and I understand your pain too I lost one sister to addiction. And at the moment my other sister is dying in front of my eyes due to addiction and I can't do anything about it. It takes alot of strength and courage not to follow the cycle of destruction especially when you see the consequences of it results. Thank you for posting this.

phoebe64

That’s very sad, FreeOwl. I’m sorry for the loss of your sister.

Dee74

Thinking of you and your family today FreeOwl.

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OverthePanic

So sad..I'm so very sorry FreeOwl

advbike

I am so sorry, FreeOwl, for the loss of your sister. It is a sad story, and I am sure it is still painful for you.

Yes she is still with you, cherish her and the memories.

You're in my thoughts.

BeABetterMan

And there but for the grace of God go I. Some of us survive long enough to actually survive. Some don’t. Those who don’t leave behind a lot of pain and shattered hopes. My mother will probably die in addiction. We are estranged because I have to
protect myself like you did.

Thank you God for all of us that are sober today and may all who still suffer find a way out.

So sorry Owl. Heartbreaking.

Steely

I'm so sorry FreeOwl. Another tragic waste. Remember her lovingly. One of us.

I'm glad you're sober too.

FreeOwl

thank you, sticky.... I'm so sorry for your loss and the ongoing agony of another sibling headed down that path.