Boggle10

Of sober recovery here today, I started to panic, what had I done, it seriously went through my head to have a drink.

RAL

We were all locked out Boggle. It was a system problem. all ok now Glad you didn't drink.

nez

Yeah I couldn't log in either. I just told myself...it wasn't all about me! ..and it wasn't. LOL. This too shall pass...and it did. What I do in the meantime is the key.

Steely

Me too Boggle. Locked out, that is.

Good I wasn't drinking otherwise would have thought I'd blacked out, posted something stupid (can't think what), and been barred for life. 😂

We made it Boggle. Goes to show to never jump the gun.

Erica375

Oh, Gawd I can just see that scenario! So glad to not be drinking!

Anna

The site was down for a little while and no one could log in. Thanks to the techies for the quick fix. It's much appreciated.

Boggle10

Phew, thank goodness I thought I'd done something knowing I didn't, thanks for the reply's, I'd miss this place if I didn't have it

aasharon90

With 30 yrs of sobriety I along with everyone else
here in SR got anxious for not having my SR this
morning.

Coming here everyday has become a part of my
daily routine in life. So when SR goes down for whatever
reason, i gather my thoughts, accept this small change
in my days plans and switch to something else till
my recovery lifeline has been restored.

In this case for today, i grabbed my shovel and headed
outside to take on a new task that will hopefully make it
just a tad easier in my garden work down the road as I
get older.

As gardening is one of my daily joys in life, today while
waiting for SR to pop up again, i had several plants I
ordered for the holidays to arrive safely and is ready
to add more joy and color to my garden of paradise.

I will definitely tell you that with incorporating a program
of recovery in my daily life for many yrs now, never did
I imagine or entertain the thought of having a drink of
alcohol would make my life today any better or brighter
than what I already have.

Freedom from my alcohol addiction is one of the greatest
blessings to achieve and there is nothing in this world so
bad that would ever make me want to return to the insanity that
comes with addiction.

Not even if SR has a glitch in it's system today.

Being grateful for this wonderful sight many of us use daily,
in my heart I know folks are doing their best to keep things
running smoothly for us to use and to have it restored to us
a quickly as they can, I am appreciative for them.

Thank you SR...!!!!

Delilah1

I am so glad you didn’t drink! I thought I was locked out too, and after a while realized it was probably the website. What did you do that helped you to stay sober when you couldn’t log in?

Fusion

Oh my, how my negative mind/AV works. My AV mind initially thought I'd been banned, that I'd perhaps drank yesterday, blacked out, posted inappropriate posts, and consequently been banned for life! How conniving is my AV, to take advantage of a situation - and to conjure up an explanation (false) and an answer - drink! Crazy! Then after those crazy AV thoughts swam around my head, I ignored it, because it ALWAYS lies. And came to my senses and thought, it's probably just a technical glitch. Thanks for being back online SR!

12JSAngel21

This was a really interesting thought process for me, it actually perked me up a bit. Last night when I read I was not allowed on, I can't remember exact wording I thought I did something wrong and wasn't allowed on anymore and I did panic for a little bit, then I started thinking they wouldn't kick someone off the site who was really trying to stay quit, so that must mean the site is down, hackers probably got to it, it is 2020 after all.

I did think when I woke up that well, If I decide to go back to drinking there wouldn't be anyone to report to or know that I did because I can't post anymore. hmmmm. Then the thought faded away. I am not trying to be cocky or making light of this, but after that previous thought that no one would know, my thoughts went to, that's ok, I am still going to do this, stay sober, because it feels so right and I feel so good, it is 7 days for me and this feels so right, I don't want to go back to the drink.

This might be the wrong thread to post this, but my thoughts are pouring out of my head. I am so very happy SR is still here, and I do need and want to be able to post here, but I also feel very satisfied with myself that I actually felt that if you were gone, that I could actually still survive and still stay sober. That thought is so lightbulb moment, eye opening and such an inner peace that I do have it in me to change my life.

Thanks for letting me say this. Again I know all of us here felt our own emotions on the down time, but I am sort of shocked that I felt the way I did and I wanted to share. It has taken me a long, long, time (years) to get to this point, that I felt this so deeply, I've never felt this way before.

I am glad that SR is here and you didn't go poof! I still need you! But glad I learned that I am stronger than I thought.

Boggle10

Delilah, I done some shopping online, helped my husband with the washing(he does that when he's off work) and I kept trying to log in, the thought of a glass of wine only lasted a few seconds but was a few seconds to long, my bottle of wine I got as a present has now been gifted on, and I won't miss it at all x

RAL

i thought I'd been banned too Tatsy!

MissPerfumado

I think the "I've been banned ... but why?" thought came to a few of us! Me included.

12JSAngel, I like your thought process. SR is not a crutch, it is a tool. Help comes from others but the change comes from yourself.

LateBloominCait

So grateful that the forums are back up!

Dee74

It seems it was my error yesterday,
I'm sorry Boggle and everyone else. I'm glad you didn't drink.

Boggle10

Thanks Dee, I'm also glad I didn't drink