10 days in
10 days in
And the physical symptoms are really getting better. Not so much sweating and nightmares at night. Blood pressure and resting heart rate are returning. Stamina on my bike rides is returning.
Mentally I feel better too. I removed someone from my life recently that was simply not making me happy. It was/is hard, but I am handing a lot of stuff over and out of my care. I知 focusing on staying grounded, going to meetings, and being as active as I can in the intense heat we池e experiencing.
I feelp retty strong today. Still struggling with depression and anxiety and loneliness, but really just reminding myself to have faith in the future. And as I type this, I知 focusing on gratitude for today. For my health, my sobriety, my family, my pets, my career. For SR, for AA. And for God giving me another chance at life.
Today is far from perfect, but at least I know tomorrow will not resemble so many of my Mondays throughout my life. Gasping for breath, living in shame and remorse. Feeling demoralized and weak. Nope, tomorrow I値l just be grumpy to be at work, but I値l be there. On time.
Day 10 and it痴 really worth it.
Mentally I feel better too. I removed someone from my life recently that was simply not making me happy. It was/is hard, but I am handing a lot of stuff over and out of my care. I知 focusing on staying grounded, going to meetings, and being as active as I can in the intense heat we池e experiencing.
I feelp retty strong today. Still struggling with depression and anxiety and loneliness, but really just reminding myself to have faith in the future. And as I type this, I知 focusing on gratitude for today. For my health, my sobriety, my family, my pets, my career. For SR, for AA. And for God giving me another chance at life.
Today is far from perfect, but at least I know tomorrow will not resemble so many of my Mondays throughout my life. Gasping for breath, living in shame and remorse. Feeling demoralized and weak. Nope, tomorrow I値l just be grumpy to be at work, but I値l be there. On time.
Day 10 and it痴 really worth it.
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I'm so pleased to read your update, BABM. Practising gratitude every day is so important to my wellbeing. I've found it trains my brain to seek out positives, rather than focusing on negatives. I'm glad your'e here, and grumpy sounds OK, compared to the alternative, hungover.
Yeah BABM, life isn't perfect is it? But at least sober we have a perspective on all of it that we simply don't have when we are drunk. This or that might suck, and we might wish it were different, but none of it is the end of the world and reason enough to light the drunken flamethrower and lay waste to everything and everyone. That is one of the biggest changes a sober life has brought to me. I'm happy you are healing man.
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Nice..Your posts are night and day......and day is so much brighter....
You get way down there....sounds very similar to what happens to me as well.....
So glad you are feeling "well" today.......me too.
You get way down there....sounds very similar to what happens to me as well.....
So glad you are feeling "well" today.......me too.
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Join Date: Jul 2018
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Good work BABM. Depression, anxiety - for me they improved dramatically within ten weeks. I mean - life changingly dramatically.
I am aware that this isn't the case for everyone, and if my low mood comes back or I grow anxious again I'm going to be much quicker in going to seek medical support.
10 days is amazing - you're over the worst physically
I am aware that this isn't the case for everyone, and if my low mood comes back or I grow anxious again I'm going to be much quicker in going to seek medical support.
10 days is amazing - you're over the worst physically
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