17 weeks ago today
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17 weeks ago today
I had an awful hangover. I couldn't get out of bed before midday and when I did I headed to the pub. First pint made me vomit but I managed to carry on until I passed out drunk about 8pm. Standard day, nothing unusual, a routine I had been practicing for over ten years...when I worked i wouldn't drink until 5pm then get smashed, when I wasn't working I'd be nailed all day.
Today I am sober and very glad to be so. My anxiety and low mood left me very gradually by about week ten; I've lost weight and am eating better and exercising gently daily.
I tried to give up LOADS of times, came back here embarrassed and ashamed because I'd drunk. But it was worth me keeping at it, listening to advice from the LTS', just keeping going and making changes. Looking back those desperate times were a necessary part of the journey. Necessary but very unpleasant - I wish I could've learned a bit quicker but it is what it is.
Anyone in the early days or thinking about stopping, on day one or if you keep relapsing...keep going. My life is far from perfect, I've got a whole load of **** caused by my drinking that hasn't gone away. But living sober I can feel my sanity returning, my personality returning
Day 119!
And today I know I need to not take the first drink and I'll be safe, and that'll allow me to do the work I need to do to stay sober
Today I am sober and very glad to be so. My anxiety and low mood left me very gradually by about week ten; I've lost weight and am eating better and exercising gently daily.
I tried to give up LOADS of times, came back here embarrassed and ashamed because I'd drunk. But it was worth me keeping at it, listening to advice from the LTS', just keeping going and making changes. Looking back those desperate times were a necessary part of the journey. Necessary but very unpleasant - I wish I could've learned a bit quicker but it is what it is.
Anyone in the early days or thinking about stopping, on day one or if you keep relapsing...keep going. My life is far from perfect, I've got a whole load of **** caused by my drinking that hasn't gone away. But living sober I can feel my sanity returning, my personality returning
Day 119!
And today I know I need to not take the first drink and I'll be safe, and that'll allow me to do the work I need to do to stay sober
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That is so good and I think you were writing about me too!! Constant relapsing, coming back here ashamed and just demoralised by not being able to break the cycle.
I am on day 39 and feeling really positive that this is the time that will stick. Thank you for sharing your success. Congratulations and well done!
I am on day 39 and feeling really positive that this is the time that will stick. Thank you for sharing your success. Congratulations and well done!
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What a wonderful post, Be! 17 wks. is fabulous. I remember that feeling of getting my personality back - being able to trust myself again & no messes to clean up from drunken behavior. It will just keep getting better. You're free.
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That's amazing, Be. Great post and very inspiring! Congratulations.
6-8 hours after I put down my last (and hopefully final) drink I thought I was going to die. I hope I never forget that feeling. It literally made me fall to my knees and pray, asking for help because I never want to go through this BS again.
6-8 hours after I put down my last (and hopefully final) drink I thought I was going to die. I hope I never forget that feeling. It literally made me fall to my knees and pray, asking for help because I never want to go through this BS again.
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