Finalcall

I chose to drink once again. From the first sip till the first week, at no time was it as good as or even close to what my imagination made it out to be.
so... Back here again to get back on my feet.
This time I have enough sober experience in the recent past. About 3 of the last 5 months, I know with out any doubt that living life free from the need, the fatigue, the sickness,the negative self loathing thinking that I will enjoy my life to a higher quality without alcohol.
The next few days will be mentally draining, but it will be the last time I have to rid myself of this poison

Hevyn

You learned something valuable, Final. Some of us need further proof that it's going to bring nothing but misery. You sound ready now, and we know you can do this.

Dee74

thats a good choice in the end finalcall

what kinds of things will you put in place to ensure you don't drink again?

D

Surrendered19

It is always good for me to read posts like yours. I am living in Day 37 for the first time in 3 decades. As I start to feel stronger and better it is good to be reminded of so many others with long term sobriety that try to drink again. It always seems to work out the same for everyone. Again, thank you for your post. It helps people like me who are new to this.

least

Glad you've decided to get sober for good. I hope our support can help you reach that goal.

Finalcall

Always with a similar reply dee. And as my journey to sobriety continues it makes more sense. Always a self reflective question, and always a difficult one to answer.

First course of action is to get through the first few days.

Dee74

I ask it cos I think it's important

wanting to be sober is one part of the equation - what we;re going to do to mak i happen is the other.

I get that you don't feel too great right now but don't put off the doing stuff...you won't want to be ambushed by a chance to drink again with no plan in place.

D

Anna

Getting through the first few days is important, FinalCall, but Dee is right about having a plan. We're here for you.

D122y

Staying clean hurts sometimes other times it feels amazing.

It felt amazing today when I woke up sober after sleeping about 7 hours straight.

It hurt, for a few moments, when I thought about the fact that I am off work for the next 2 days and i am not going to get highly drunk tonight.

Sitting on the couch with my sweet wife and little dog watching football is exactly what I want and need to do. I am drinking a nice cup of warm coffee. I don't usually have one this late. Special occasions.

I am an addict for life. I crave the buzz. I will crave for life. I have permanent brain damage. It will never go away.

It has been the best year of my life for so many reasons. The catalyst has been not drinking.

Thanks.