NicLin

Hi all,

Wanted to log on and check in. Day 162 and feeling a little bit better after a depressive episode (maybe over worked, tired, overwhelmed, all of the above).

I am learning that my sponsor wants to hear from me, that I am not a burden by asking for help. This is one of my biggest challenges, I always think I am bothering people if I tell them I am sad/down/depressed/struggling. I need to know that it is ok to reach out, that people that love me care.

I also decided to move next week instead of tomorrow, give myself the extra week. I am in no rush as I am with my parents and not pressured to move now. So I will get myself organized and do this next week.

I understand that I need to be better at a few things, try to improve on:
-Sleep hygiene (I go to bed at almost 3am every night and wake up to go to work having slept an average of 5 hours a night)
-Morning rituals - starting with prayer and meditation and just having a cup of coffee or tea in silence will do me wonders on starting the day right.
-Moderation in exercise - it is OK to workout 3-4 times a week and do one thing, not a million!
-Eating - healthier, more plant-based eating with good breakfasts will help me power through the day
-Calling and Reaching out to others - 3 alcoholics a day (like my sponsor says)

Ok I will stop there haha as you can see I am not a "Strive for 5" type of person. I tend to be manic and exceed myself a lot, event in my organizing.

Thanks for listening, reading. Night family.

Nic.

Dee74

Glad things are looking up a little for you NicLin

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theVman31

Day 162 is classe.
Keep going Nic Lin

Soberwolf

Your never a burden

Formy2boys2

Self care is so important and often overlooked. You're doing great!

Zevin

Thanks for this post NicLin. It's a great list of self-care ideas and some I needed to implement, especially better sleeping habits!

SoberRican

You are doing it. That's what matters and sober. Super cool. ✌

ScottFromWI

Glad to hear things are looking up a bit NicLin, thanks for sharing and I hope today is even better.

MLD51

I really like your list. There are things on it I need to adopt also.
Congratulations on day 162!

Anna

Nic, I'm glad you're starting to feel better.

I like the plans you have in mind to help you to live your best life.

RecklessDrunk

I was a functioning alcoholic when I first got in the program. I always took care of myself even when using. Paid the rent, usually ate right, worked out, years at at a time between sick days from work. Asking for help was never my thing.

I remember at all the meetings that I showed up as a newcomer and got flooded with phone numbers. I was like no way, I'm not going to bother anybody. If I'm depressed or whatever I'm gonna deal with it myself.

I was advised to get a sponsor so I did that. He gave me instructions to call everyday for the first 90 days. So I did that, it was just kind of routine I didn't feel like I was troubling anybody. Just doing what i was told. Could i have gotten sober without doing so, i cant really say. I was able to bounce my immediate state of mind off to a good and sober individual and get some insight or feedback. Sometimes my state of mind was healthy, sometimes it wasn't. I was honest too, like yeah I'd love to drink right now. He totally understood, he'd be like yeah me too sometimes but... He was good at steering my thinking back away from the instant gratification of a drink and back to sobriety.