Memories of Drinking
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If you ask a heavy drinker, they’ll say all is well. An ex-drinker will say the opposite.
I’ve always been suspicious of heavy smokers. They’re likely to be moody for a start, and don’t they realise how much they smell and repulse people with their coughing and spluttering? How selfish.
I now see I was quite an unpleasant and selfish individual as a drinker. Any outing or social event had to include alcohol or I’d sulk. My mood swings were off the scale too even without alcohol in my system. I’m not saying I’m perfect now - although I’m way healthier physically - but I’m a lot more placid and ever pleasant.
I’ve always been suspicious of heavy smokers. They’re likely to be moody for a start, and don’t they realise how much they smell and repulse people with their coughing and spluttering? How selfish.
I now see I was quite an unpleasant and selfish individual as a drinker. Any outing or social event had to include alcohol or I’d sulk. My mood swings were off the scale too even without alcohol in my system. I’m not saying I’m perfect now - although I’m way healthier physically - but I’m a lot more placid and ever pleasant.
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Originally Posted by SobrQT86 
How did your addiction make your life unmanageable? How did your addiction make you feel?
for me, the unmanagability came in many forms. the main was putting alcohol and My wants ahead of everything else.
calling in "sick" to work due to hangovers/withdrawls is another way.
when my life would start falling apart due to alcoholism, denying it was alcoholism and thinking i just needed a change of scenery- the geographical relocation program.
those are just 3 examples of unmanagability AND insanity.
how my addiction made me feel:
the further i sunk the more i felt like a useless worthless POS.pretty low self esteem. that was masked in many ways. lots of pride and arrogance used to mask it.
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