The time I most appreciate being sober
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The time I most appreciate being sober
Is?
For me is when I wake up in the morning.
I'm not full of dread....I'm not breathing fire....I do not have to worry about how I'm going to get to the liquor store or WHO I'm going to ask to go for me.
I look in the mirror and although my hair is a little messed up...my face does not look as aged as it does when I am on a binge...
My showers feel great instead of like a necessary job and I'm able to take one daily which while bingeing I would go days without a shower..
I get hungry in the morning now...instead of throwing up bile from the night before as I brush my teeth.
I can make plans for the day instead of feeling like a piece of **** and ignorning everyone and everything in my life.
My house is clean before I leave for the day and does not wreak of that stale alcohol smell.
I say "morning" to my cat instead of pushing by her..stumbling around to find something to wear to get to the liquor store when they open at 8am.
I can drink coffee again in the morning.
I open the blinds and let the sun shine in and I NOTICE the birds which when sober I love so much.
I have the energy to water my lawn and flowers before I leave for the day.
So I smile in the mornings now....
The crazy part is when the afternoon comes and I think maybe a drink would be a good idea....that is when it is time to "distract" or go to a meeting.
For me is when I wake up in the morning.
I'm not full of dread....I'm not breathing fire....I do not have to worry about how I'm going to get to the liquor store or WHO I'm going to ask to go for me.
I look in the mirror and although my hair is a little messed up...my face does not look as aged as it does when I am on a binge...
My showers feel great instead of like a necessary job and I'm able to take one daily which while bingeing I would go days without a shower..
I get hungry in the morning now...instead of throwing up bile from the night before as I brush my teeth.
I can make plans for the day instead of feeling like a piece of **** and ignorning everyone and everything in my life.
My house is clean before I leave for the day and does not wreak of that stale alcohol smell.
I say "morning" to my cat instead of pushing by her..stumbling around to find something to wear to get to the liquor store when they open at 8am.
I can drink coffee again in the morning.
I open the blinds and let the sun shine in and I NOTICE the birds which when sober I love so much.
I have the energy to water my lawn and flowers before I leave for the day.
So I smile in the mornings now....
The crazy part is when the afternoon comes and I think maybe a drink would be a good idea....that is when it is time to "distract" or go to a meeting.
I discovered, much to my surprise, that I am actually a morning person when sober. I get up really early, get stuff done before work if it needs doing, make lists to organize my day, enjoy coffee on my deck birdwatching. So much better than the old days of pure misery when trying to wake up and get moving. There's really no comparison.
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I actually get to work an hour early now. Which is awesome because I can leave an hour early or get some overtime. I have an appetite in the morning and can eat some fruit and cereal. Coffee doesn't put my stomach in a knot.
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I love being hungry for breakfast! I skipped it most of my adult life and didn't eat till I was absolutely starving, then would eat junk food just for the taste. Now I can enjoy a basic breakfast and coffee and be ready for the day like all those "normal" people I used to scoff at while secretly envying.
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Great post...was going to agree, it’s a m for me, the extra hour or so I get by waking earlier and refreshed and then rest of the morning which are free of the hangover.
But on reflection when I most appreciate being sober is time with the family, when our grown up children drop in for lunch, a cup of tea, birthdays, Christmas, when I do a running race of with my daughter, when my wife and I go to the theatre. I would none of these I had continued drinking.
But on reflection when I most appreciate being sober is time with the family, when our grown up children drop in for lunch, a cup of tea, birthdays, Christmas, when I do a running race of with my daughter, when my wife and I go to the theatre. I would none of these I had continued drinking.
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Amen girl! I especially resonated with “can actually make plans and not feel like **** and ignore everyone and everything “
Keep up the wonderful work and these fantastic, inspiring posts!!
Keep up the wonderful work and these fantastic, inspiring posts!!
Agreed, FinallyTime. I really hated myself for quite some time before I quit. I wasn't sure I'd ever get to a point where I could look in a mirror without almost crying, sometimes actually crying. The person looking back at me in those dark days was NOT who I was meant to be, and I knew it. I'd wake up sometimes and wish I hadn't, it got that bad.
Now, I still sometimes wake up and wish I hadn't, but it's completely different. It's because I actually SLEEP now, not pass out, and I love the feeling of my bed.
Now, I still sometimes wake up and wish I hadn't, but it's completely different. It's because I actually SLEEP now, not pass out, and I love the feeling of my bed.
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Agreed, FinallyTime. I really hated myself for quite some time before I quit. I wasn't sure I'd ever get to a point where I could look in a mirror without almost crying, sometimes actually crying. The person looking back at me in those dark days was NOT who I was meant to be, and I knew it. I'd wake up sometimes and wish I hadn't, it got that bad.
Now, I still sometimes wake up and wish I hadn't, but it's completely different. It's because I actually SLEEP now, not pass out, and I love the feeling of my bed.
Now, I still sometimes wake up and wish I hadn't, but it's completely different. It's because I actually SLEEP now, not pass out, and I love the feeling of my bed.
Oh me too! I remember before just being all twisted up in the sheets...sweating...hating myself...now I stretch out and take in the fresh smell of the sheets I wash frequently now!
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But I have learned one not to be taken for granted...cause I tend to want to reward myself...for being sober by getting drunk...OH just ONE time....and it turns into a **** show.....LOL.
That was real nice to read and very relatable (altho i am only a week into being sober) i can honestly say falling asleep because im tired is the best feeling i have. For years upon years, i haven’t been falling asleep as much as passing out. I tend to get sleepy while reading the threads on here just before i fall asleep and its helping me focus on doing the right thing.
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