Today’s the day
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Today’s the day
A brief backstory: I’m almost 9 months sober, living with my active AH. There was a big, nasty incident between us on 2-19 that involved him being in a blind-drunk rage. He has absolutely no idea what transpired on that day.
I have not not spoken to him since that day as I know, from past experience, that it is unsafe to do so. Today, however, we have a counseling session. Today is the day that he is going to hear it all: his behavior, the ramifications of his behavior, my stance about his behavior. I planned to inform him today in the relative safety of the counselors office.
This is is a first for me. Typically I swept issues under the rug, downplayed them, or allowed him to tell me why I was wrong and why it was all about his emotions/needs. I used to apologize for his behavior. So much wrong with that.
In the near two week standoff, I almost broke several times. Usually I ignore for a week then just go right back to where we were. This time, whenever I felt that way, I re read my post then read more posts by other members. That gave me strength to stand my ground and stay true to my convictions.
I dont know what today will bring. I just know that I feel very strong and sure of myself. I will not sugar coat or downplay the events.
Grateful for the strength and wisdom found here on SR.
I have not not spoken to him since that day as I know, from past experience, that it is unsafe to do so. Today, however, we have a counseling session. Today is the day that he is going to hear it all: his behavior, the ramifications of his behavior, my stance about his behavior. I planned to inform him today in the relative safety of the counselors office.
This is is a first for me. Typically I swept issues under the rug, downplayed them, or allowed him to tell me why I was wrong and why it was all about his emotions/needs. I used to apologize for his behavior. So much wrong with that.
In the near two week standoff, I almost broke several times. Usually I ignore for a week then just go right back to where we were. This time, whenever I felt that way, I re read my post then read more posts by other members. That gave me strength to stand my ground and stay true to my convictions.
I dont know what today will bring. I just know that I feel very strong and sure of myself. I will not sugar coat or downplay the events.
Grateful for the strength and wisdom found here on SR.
Stay strong, and try to manage your expectations for how this will go. All you can do is offer your part on what happened. If he is not ready or willing to hear you, he might respond in any number of surprising, unpleasant, or uncomfortable ways. I am glad you are doing this in the relative safety of the counselor's office, but I hope you are still prepared that he might not be able to hear you, no matter how clear you are.
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