Tetrax

So I've finally realised I can't quit on my own. I've tried many times, thinking I'd got it sussed whenever I had a good day. Then a bad day would come along and I'd realise: I ain't got it sussed. Not at all.

Last night I felt so sure I could go to bed sober. I watched a movie with dinner; it was fine at first, but as the movie got closer to its end I found myself more concerned with the time and where any alcohol could be, rather than enjoying the satisfying denouement of said movie (Little Miss Sunshine fyi, it was really quite good).

Suffice to say I found my booze, and drank two bottles of wine in about three hours.

I plan to go to both AA and SMART meetings next week. The former are everyday in my city and the latter are on Thursdays when I don't have work. I have no excuse. Nor do I want any excuses, anymore.

Ghostlight1

I couldn't quit on my own, either, despite a hundred attempts. More.
Try those meetings. Come here. Do what you need to stay sober
I finally had to admit I was beat and threw in the towel and reached out for help.
And it was there. Saved my ass when I couldn't do it alone.
Best to you in sobriety.

Dee74

I think SMART & AA are both a good idea Tetrax - follow through with both of them man

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PurpleKnight

You can do this Tetrax . . . change things up and make it happen!!

Anna

I think that taking action is so important in recovery.

I'm glad you are choosing to go to SMART and AA.

SoberCAH

I sure can't stay sober on the basis of willpower.

And I certainly couldn't get sober with my own rather nonexistent willpower when it came to alcohol.

Keep coming back to those meetings and keep us posted.