201 days sober
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201 days sober
Well I'm very grateful I'm not fighting anymore !!! I had four years and drank again three beers one day and I habitually relapsed for 5.5 years then an unexpected MIRACLE!!! . The miracle was one day I had an experience Spiritual Experience and the next day I drove to the liquor store . But something was different that day I could not even talk myself into drinking looking right at at my favorite drink .
I was so excited could this really be happening to me. Then I had six months my hardest six months of my life and never drank no nothing really happened bad to me physically no one died in my family I would go on to have my worst psychotic break ever and I have had about 7-9 of them before. Yes the good old mental hospital number 17 stayed 25 days broke my foot locked in a room out of my mind I kicked a metal door ten times . Well some how I'm off about well I went from taking 8 medications to 4 and that's about it less . They took me off antidepressants it was very hard at first but eventually I got better yes I take an antipsychotic a mood stabilizer and gabapentin for fibromyalgia and I think it's called buspar at a very low dose once a day dose for anxiety. Life is really getting better yes life with schizoaffective bipolar disorder well the last 17 years since my first psychotic break have been not easy. And I lost 46 pounds in one year 19 % body fat just by eating better and medication reduction. All friends alcoholic or drug addict I cut right out off my life .I only went to a bar three times in the time I was relapsing all the time never drank with anybody expect on those occasions. I drank alone but I did not quit alone God did for me what I could not do for myself .
I was so excited could this really be happening to me. Then I had six months my hardest six months of my life and never drank no nothing really happened bad to me physically no one died in my family I would go on to have my worst psychotic break ever and I have had about 7-9 of them before. Yes the good old mental hospital number 17 stayed 25 days broke my foot locked in a room out of my mind I kicked a metal door ten times . Well some how I'm off about well I went from taking 8 medications to 4 and that's about it less . They took me off antidepressants it was very hard at first but eventually I got better yes I take an antipsychotic a mood stabilizer and gabapentin for fibromyalgia and I think it's called buspar at a very low dose once a day dose for anxiety. Life is really getting better yes life with schizoaffective bipolar disorder well the last 17 years since my first psychotic break have been not easy. And I lost 46 pounds in one year 19 % body fat just by eating better and medication reduction. All friends alcoholic or drug addict I cut right out off my life .I only went to a bar three times in the time I was relapsing all the time never drank with anybody expect on those occasions. I drank alone but I did not quit alone God did for me what I could not do for myself .
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