hello old friends
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: fort wayne, IN.
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hello old friends
As my anniversary date approaches , 10- 14 ( and midnight blue's ) I am so grateful to be sober . I am so grateful to be aware of myself. I am so grateful to love myself.
I am grateful for my alcoholism because it taught me about myself.
Once I felt gratitude for myself , I became grateful for everyone in my life. Including the abusers , liars, thieves, manipulators for without them I wouldn't know what I now know. Understanding of the fragility of the heart. Peace and acceptance. Surrender.
I give thanks to this gathering of suffering souls who in the midst of our pain we are able to heal each other.
I have not had a drink since I stumbled onto this site in 2012 and I am grateful for that.
I remember living in my bathrobe for 2 weeks, afraid to go outside because I knew I would buy alcohol. I went from drinking a quart of whiskey every day to nothing. I typed and I read articles on this site. I learned there was more than one approach to getting free and it worked.
This year I ask myself," will I always remember the day I stopped drinking? " I rattle off my sober date like my date of birth when I find myself talking about addiction. I wonder if it's healthy.
Am I counting the days like a jail sentence? Do I subconsciously think that by holding the day is really a way of saying," I'm healed now?" What is the truth ? Am I counting the days to prove I can drink again? Possibly. I don't know.
I divorced my husband two years ago. I live by myself but I am not alone.
Why do we remember our stop dates? Does that mean I am in a state of resistance to my alcoholism ?
Before I go , I want whomever reads this that you have come to the right place for healing. Don't give up. Love yourself and your divine spirit. Feeling yourself is a beautiful . You are beautiful.
I am grateful for my alcoholism because it taught me about myself.
Once I felt gratitude for myself , I became grateful for everyone in my life. Including the abusers , liars, thieves, manipulators for without them I wouldn't know what I now know. Understanding of the fragility of the heart. Peace and acceptance. Surrender.
I give thanks to this gathering of suffering souls who in the midst of our pain we are able to heal each other.
I have not had a drink since I stumbled onto this site in 2012 and I am grateful for that.
I remember living in my bathrobe for 2 weeks, afraid to go outside because I knew I would buy alcohol. I went from drinking a quart of whiskey every day to nothing. I typed and I read articles on this site. I learned there was more than one approach to getting free and it worked.
This year I ask myself," will I always remember the day I stopped drinking? " I rattle off my sober date like my date of birth when I find myself talking about addiction. I wonder if it's healthy.
Am I counting the days like a jail sentence? Do I subconsciously think that by holding the day is really a way of saying," I'm healed now?" What is the truth ? Am I counting the days to prove I can drink again? Possibly. I don't know.
I divorced my husband two years ago. I live by myself but I am not alone.
Why do we remember our stop dates? Does that mean I am in a state of resistance to my alcoholism ?
Before I go , I want whomever reads this that you have come to the right place for healing. Don't give up. Love yourself and your divine spirit. Feeling yourself is a beautiful . You are beautiful.
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Join Date: May 2018
Location: Where I’ve longed to be all my life…..here, now.
Posts: 7,339
Thanks escapist
I have only been free from the chains of my addiction since the end of May.
And in just a short time, and sometimes it seems like a long time, I am seeing things more clearly including my boundaries and the relationship I have/or had as of 10 days ago.
I quit smoking on Halloween in 1987 at 5:23 PM . After my first year of recovery from nicotine, I did not count my days but I did count my months. And after a couple years I started to count my years and not my months .
I remember quitting several times before I made it that Halloween. And I think I remember it not because I want to smoke cigarettes again, because I don’t! I don’t want to die that way if I can help it.
I think I remember the date because I am proud myself, to give myself a pat on the back about how strong I am and to remind myself that I can do anything I set my mind to .
Congratulations on your almost 6 years!!
I have only been free from the chains of my addiction since the end of May.
And in just a short time, and sometimes it seems like a long time, I am seeing things more clearly including my boundaries and the relationship I have/or had as of 10 days ago.
I quit smoking on Halloween in 1987 at 5:23 PM . After my first year of recovery from nicotine, I did not count my days but I did count my months. And after a couple years I started to count my years and not my months .
I remember quitting several times before I made it that Halloween. And I think I remember it not because I want to smoke cigarettes again, because I don’t! I don’t want to die that way if I can help it.
I think I remember the date because I am proud myself, to give myself a pat on the back about how strong I am and to remind myself that I can do anything I set my mind to .
Congratulations on your almost 6 years!!
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,569
It's wonderful to see you, escapist! Congratulations on all those beautiful years of sobriety. 
It's so good to know you're doing well.
I have my stop date written on my calendar - every month. I don't know why I do that, but it can't hurt.
It's so good to know you're doing well.I have my stop date written on my calendar - every month. I don't know why I do that, but it can't hurt.
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Join Date: Jul 2017
Location: SoCal
Posts: 2,562
I too am grateful for my alcoholism because without it I wouldn't be the man I am today. I learned a lot from having to overcome it, and realized that I had a lot more strength than I thought.
Just checked the app. 520 days sober from alcohol and benzos and lunesta, and 400 from nicotine. Probably about two years from cocaine.
Done.
Just checked the app. 520 days sober from alcohol and benzos and lunesta, and 400 from nicotine. Probably about two years from cocaine.
Done.
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