CincyFin

is better than not! People who feel discouraged after relapse take solace in the fact that it happens to the best of us!
I have been on the journey to maintain sobriety for 2 years and when I trip up, I get right back at it. Today is day 43 for me after a relapse over the summer. This is a life long journey so dust yourself off and take another crack at it! I have dove headfirst into the step work and surrendering to my higher power. Keep at it, eventually it will work!!

SnazzyDresser

Amen to that, CincyFin! Sobriety is tricky but in my experience if you keep trying and give it all you got, you can figure it out enough to make it stick. When I first came to SR in 2016, I'd just had 75 days that I'd messed up and couldn't get back on. After that, with SR's help, I had a run of 208 days, and now I've got an active 610.

Dee74

Welcome back CincyFin
what are you doing differently this time?

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D122y

Cin,

Fall down 7 times, get up 8.

Fail all the way to the top.

I am over a year since my teaspoon of 21 year old cognac toasting a friends sick wife.....

..and 3 years since my shot of anti Montezuma in Mx.

I am stronger by the moment.

F booze.

Thanks.

Ekohe

You're so right. Take what you can an use it to identify triggers, ect and keep on growing. We can do this!

least

I was a chronic relapser and felt hopeless. But with the support of the good people here, I didn't give up. I kept trying and this December I'll have 9 yrs sober.

Don't give up!

CincyFin

Hi! I've never worked through the 12 steps! I do something every day to work on my sobriety. I never really completely surrendered to the program. Trying to focus on today, doing the next right thing and everything will work out.

Anna

I'm glad you're back and working on your sobriety.

Hevyn

Very happy to see you, CF. You sound determined.

Upstairs

Welcome back CincyFin!

axeman5971

I love it. Keep it up until you succeed. I was a chronic relapser. 16 days was the furthest I’d gone in probably 10 years. I’m closing in on 14 months now! It can be done!

Spider

Reminds me of the GBS quote...."Ever tried? Ever failed? Try again. Fail again. Fail better".

I could fill the Grand Canyon with welcome chips...still here, still trying

Dee74

12 steps sounds good CF

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CincyFin

It's gratefullness and mindfullness and playing the tape through and just being so damn sick of alcohol controlling my life that I have come to the point where I just f-ing surrender. I see recovering alcoholics and I ask them "what did you do? please tell me how you did it". If I start to think about the fact that I can never have a drink ever again it gets too overwhelming, so instead I think about how that just for today I will not drink and that gives me a good start for tomorrow and that's good enough. I've taken up old hobbies I used to enjoy before alcohol took up all my time. I got a library card for the first time in years and visit every couple weeks and read books like crazy. I started a saltwater reef tank with the money I save from not drinking and enjoy visiting stores, talking about different corals and cultivating my own. In fact I went a got a new fish today that should help with some nuisance algae in my little ocean world in my living room. I love sleeping soundly. I love waking up not hung over and feeling good.
I didn't drink today and I won't drink before I go to bed....think I might read for a bit and that gives me a good start for tomorrow.