44 days Sober
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44 days Sober
Hello,
I feel like my life has just really begun. This is the first time of my many attempts at sobriety that I can truly say I am finally on the road I want to be on. I’ve dreamed of the time where alcohol no longer dictated how I lived my life. It’s been 20 yrs of feeling prisoner of this habit. I, like many other stories I’ve read online, are addicted to the feelings of “happiness” that alcoholics think they experience, to wake up the next day with regret and the emptiness that came with it. I look forward to a life freed from this. I haven’t felt the desire to drink nor take part of anything that involves drinking. This is my very post and I can’t wait to write many more throughout my experience.
I feel like my life has just really begun. This is the first time of my many attempts at sobriety that I can truly say I am finally on the road I want to be on. I’ve dreamed of the time where alcohol no longer dictated how I lived my life. It’s been 20 yrs of feeling prisoner of this habit. I, like many other stories I’ve read online, are addicted to the feelings of “happiness” that alcoholics think they experience, to wake up the next day with regret and the emptiness that came with it. I look forward to a life freed from this. I haven’t felt the desire to drink nor take part of anything that involves drinking. This is my very post and I can’t wait to write many more throughout my experience.
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It's great to have you with us, DeeLiz. I felt just as you do when I first found SR. I'd been drinking 30 yrs.
My problem was that it had once been fun & relaxing - & I really wanted that again. I had many enjoyable experiences, before I became dependent on it. I was always searching for that long-ago euphoria, and it was never coming back. I had crossed the line into alcoholic drinking & could never drink socially again. I wish it hadn't taken me so long to realize and admit that. I lost so much by trying to moderate, & insisting I could use willpower to just have a few now and then.
I'm happy you are reclaiming your life - 44 days is wonderful. We're happy to have you here.
My problem was that it had once been fun & relaxing - & I really wanted that again. I had many enjoyable experiences, before I became dependent on it. I was always searching for that long-ago euphoria, and it was never coming back. I had crossed the line into alcoholic drinking & could never drink socially again. I wish it hadn't taken me so long to realize and admit that. I lost so much by trying to moderate, & insisting I could use willpower to just have a few now and then.
I'm happy you are reclaiming your life - 44 days is wonderful. We're happy to have you here.
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Originally Posted by Hevyn 
It's great to have you with us, DeeLiz. I felt just as you do when I first found SR. I'd been drinking 30 yrs.
My problem was that it had once been fun & relaxing - & I really wanted that again. I had many enjoyable experiences, before I became dependent on it. I was always searching for that long-ago euphoria, and it was never coming back. I had crossed the line into alcoholic drinking & could never drink socially again. I wish it hadn't taken me so long to realize and admit that. I lost so much by trying to moderate, & insisting I could use willpower to just have a few now and then.
I'm happy you are reclaiming your life - 44 days is wonderful. We're happy to have you here.
My problem was that it had once been fun & relaxing - & I really wanted that again. I had many enjoyable experiences, before I became dependent on it. I was always searching for that long-ago euphoria, and it was never coming back. I had crossed the line into alcoholic drinking & could never drink socially again. I wish it hadn't taken me so long to realize and admit that. I lost so much by trying to moderate, & insisting I could use willpower to just have a few now and then.
I'm happy you are reclaiming your life - 44 days is wonderful. We're happy to have you here.
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Originally Posted by least
Welcome to the family and congrats on 44 days sober! 
Keep going, it gets better. 
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We're so glad you found us. Thank you for serving in the Army.
It really helped me to no longer feel alone. People in my life just didn't understand - they were all social drinkers. Here, we can freely discuss it without being judged or criticized.
It really helped me to no longer feel alone. People in my life just didn't understand - they were all social drinkers. Here, we can freely discuss it without being judged or criticized.
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Originally Posted by Hevyn
We're so glad you found us. Thank you for serving in the Army.
It really helped me to no longer feel alone. People in my life just didn't understand - they were all social drinkers. Here, we can freely discuss it without being judged or criticized.
It really helped me to no longer feel alone. People in my life just didn't understand - they were all social drinkers. Here, we can freely discuss it without being judged or criticized.
My loved ones.. I rather use the flight for now lol.
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Originally Posted by Hevyn
We're so glad you found us. Thank you for serving in the Army.
It really helped me to no longer feel alone. People in my life just didn't understand - they were all social drinkers. Here, we can freely discuss it without being judged or criticized.
It really helped me to no longer feel alone. People in my life just didn't understand - they were all social drinkers. Here, we can freely discuss it without being judged or criticized.
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Originally Posted by traumaqueen7
Congrats on 44 days sober!! Wishing you strength and lots of happiness.
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Originally Posted by Atlast9999
Welcome and congrats on 44 days!!
I went to NYC on Thursday and for the first time in years, I was able to be at a rooftop bar in the city and not have the urge to drink. I did not even think of it. I was there purely to see the breathtaking views of the city. I am so proud of myself. I pray every Day that I continue. I take it Day by day.
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Originally Posted by DeeLiz
Thank you! This is Day 57
I went to NYC on Thursday and for the first time in years, I was able to be at a rooftop bar in the city and not have the urge to drink. I did not even think of it. I was there purely to see the breathtaking views of the city. I am so proud of myself. I pray every Day that I continue. I take it Day by day.
I went to NYC on Thursday and for the first time in years, I was able to be at a rooftop bar in the city and not have the urge to drink. I did not even think of it. I was there purely to see the breathtaking views of the city. I am so proud of myself. I pray every Day that I continue. I take it Day by day.
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