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First time posting
Hello, my names crabu and i have an alcohol problem.
It’s been around for decades, hiding behind a complex system of denial and subterfuge but it’s getting old - and it’s time to change.
I’m not sure i feel the need to share any of the gory details at this point, admitting i have an issue and posting on here already feels like a pretty big deal.
Or maybe i should say a bit more. Well i’m not a day drinker, i’m not out of control and i wont experience physical withdrawal - no, if i was any if these things i’d have had to address this ages ago. I used to joke that i enjoyed drinking too much to be an alcoholic and i the more i think about it, the more i see how that way of thinking formed the basis of my drinking issues. That as long as i stayed on the right side of some line i’d invented i’d be fine and my denial intact. Well the line moves over time, it has to, otherwise i cross it. Truth is, the line has moved too much recently and it's time to quit with the intellectual arguments and PHD level denial.
I’m hoping this forum is a place I can come to give and receive support, so thanks for reading and stay strong.
It’s been around for decades, hiding behind a complex system of denial and subterfuge but it’s getting old - and it’s time to change.
I’m not sure i feel the need to share any of the gory details at this point, admitting i have an issue and posting on here already feels like a pretty big deal.
Or maybe i should say a bit more. Well i’m not a day drinker, i’m not out of control and i wont experience physical withdrawal - no, if i was any if these things i’d have had to address this ages ago. I used to joke that i enjoyed drinking too much to be an alcoholic and i the more i think about it, the more i see how that way of thinking formed the basis of my drinking issues. That as long as i stayed on the right side of some line i’d invented i’d be fine and my denial intact. Well the line moves over time, it has to, otherwise i cross it. Truth is, the line has moved too much recently and it's time to quit with the intellectual arguments and PHD level denial.
I’m hoping this forum is a place I can come to give and receive support, so thanks for reading and stay strong.
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Join Date: Jun 2018
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Hi crabu!
I made my first post a few days ago after lurking for a few weeks, l had to pluck up the courage because it felt like a big deal to me too so well done for doing it
Good luck on your journey, life is brilliant without the booze and there are loads of lovely people here to help.
PS - my auto correct wants to call you gravy lol so sorry if that pops up in the future.
I made my first post a few days ago after lurking for a few weeks, l had to pluck up the courage because it felt like a big deal to me too so well done for doing it
Good luck on your journey, life is brilliant without the booze and there are loads of lovely people here to help.
PS - my auto correct wants to call you gravy lol so sorry if that pops up in the future.
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Join Date: Jul 2014
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Welcome to you. I hear you on the denial. I spent years denying my problem and then when the truth was blinding, came up with even more creative ways to deny I needed to stop. But I did. And I'm glad I did.
I'm fresh off a relapse myself, but have had more sober time than drinking time over the past 3 years. Sober is always better and this time I know I am done for good.
I hope you can find the same determination and "doneness" on this first go. It is just not worth going back to.
About the place, it is very welcoming and helpful and you can open up as much or as little as you like. We are all here to support you.
I'm fresh off a relapse myself, but have had more sober time than drinking time over the past 3 years. Sober is always better and this time I know I am done for good.
I hope you can find the same determination and "doneness" on this first go. It is just not worth going back to.
About the place, it is very welcoming and helpful and you can open up as much or as little as you like. We are all here to support you.
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Join Date: Dec 2017
Location: United States
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Welcome, crabu! It's funny, I've never been in denial that I was an alcoholic, just that I was bad enough to need to stop. I also had the litany of things I "wasn't," or things that hadn't happened to me yet (and I was told that stands for "you're eligible too!") Good for you for posting, and opening yourself up to an active support network. We're here for you.
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Welcome, crabu. This is a fabulous place for advice, support and information with people who really get it and really care. SR has been a vital part of my getting and staying sober. I hope you stick around and post often. Wishing you the best.
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