I just wanted to share how I eventually got sober
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I just wanted to share how I eventually got sober
Iv'e been sober for going on 3 years now.
I started drinking between the 6th and 7th grade, at the time, alcohol wasn't really my drug of choice. Once in 7th grade I got into
hallucinogens and Qualudes and whatever the pill of the day was, I was getting high during school until I got kicked out in the second
year of ninth. After that, alcohol really started taking hold I drank almost everyday, I joined the navy as a geographical fix because
of my drinking, drank heavy through the navy and was already blacking out a lot for a few years by then. Fast forward through about 20
years of heavy drinking, drug use and blacking out everyday, and getting in trouble. I told my self hundreds of times I'd never drink
again but by the end of the day I'd be drinking (mainly over anxiety and to fit in.) After my 3rd dwi I quit drinking for about 2.5
years and hated every minute of it, almost every day was a white knuckle ride especially when I had to be around people. Then after the
4th dwi I quit again, failed after 2 months and then finally quit in oct of 2015 for good. So that's my use background.
What I'm trying to say is that I wasn't able to get over the pain of not drinking (oh yeah, lots of cocaine too),I wasn't able to get
over the pain of not drinking until I was thoroughly convinced that drinking would ruin my life and I simply could not control it once
that first drink went down. What really got me sober is something that happened much worse than the dwi's and the judge gave me 6
months in jail, I lost a really good job, my record is so bad now that getting a job is pretty much out of the question, It's been
really hard trying to find an apartment too, most complexes won't take me. oh I did land another job for a short time but once they did
a background check they **** canned me. I'm thoroughly convinced that if I drink, everything is going down the toilet.
so again what I want to say is that it was too hard for me to quit until I realized that drinking would finish me off for good, prison
would be my home. I guess you could say I hit bottom, or at least as far down as i was willing to go and then quit, after I had this
realization, the craving were gone, Completely! that is the take away from this poorly written post, your craving could possibly go away
once you realize what could happen if you don't quit, and it really does get a lot better and easier.
Thanks for reading!
I started drinking between the 6th and 7th grade, at the time, alcohol wasn't really my drug of choice. Once in 7th grade I got into
hallucinogens and Qualudes and whatever the pill of the day was, I was getting high during school until I got kicked out in the second
year of ninth. After that, alcohol really started taking hold I drank almost everyday, I joined the navy as a geographical fix because
of my drinking, drank heavy through the navy and was already blacking out a lot for a few years by then. Fast forward through about 20
years of heavy drinking, drug use and blacking out everyday, and getting in trouble. I told my self hundreds of times I'd never drink
again but by the end of the day I'd be drinking (mainly over anxiety and to fit in.) After my 3rd dwi I quit drinking for about 2.5
years and hated every minute of it, almost every day was a white knuckle ride especially when I had to be around people. Then after the
4th dwi I quit again, failed after 2 months and then finally quit in oct of 2015 for good. So that's my use background.
What I'm trying to say is that I wasn't able to get over the pain of not drinking (oh yeah, lots of cocaine too),I wasn't able to get
over the pain of not drinking until I was thoroughly convinced that drinking would ruin my life and I simply could not control it once
that first drink went down. What really got me sober is something that happened much worse than the dwi's and the judge gave me 6
months in jail, I lost a really good job, my record is so bad now that getting a job is pretty much out of the question, It's been
really hard trying to find an apartment too, most complexes won't take me. oh I did land another job for a short time but once they did
a background check they **** canned me. I'm thoroughly convinced that if I drink, everything is going down the toilet.
so again what I want to say is that it was too hard for me to quit until I realized that drinking would finish me off for good, prison
would be my home. I guess you could say I hit bottom, or at least as far down as i was willing to go and then quit, after I had this
realization, the craving were gone, Completely! that is the take away from this poorly written post, your craving could possibly go away
once you realize what could happen if you don't quit, and it really does get a lot better and easier.
Thanks for reading!
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Awesome and super sincere post! I could not have said this better. It shows why we should not wait to hit rock bottom to come out. I am sorry for some of the things that happened with your life, but you are at least free of it now. Hope the future brings good things to you! I will take your words as inspiration in my newly started journey towards sobriety.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Toronto
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I can relate. I have great difficulty getting a job because I can't pass a background check. Had several job offers rescinded, which made me drink even more. I feel hopeless and can't stay sober long because of that.
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