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Day 1
Back to square one again 😞 2 day bender missed work today and hid in bed all day absolutely died a slow death afriad to even answer the phone.... This is the reason i give it up in the first place hell how ya forget the sickness this is 😔
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Originally Posted by SoberRDarrell 
Back to square one again 😞 2 day bender missed work today and hid in bed all day absolutely died a slow death afriad to even answer the phone.... This is the reason i give it up in the first place hell how ya forget the sickness this is 😔
There's only one way out and that's not to drink.
How are you now?
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* Raises hand *
Fortunately for me, I had a "work from home" day today which means that I booted my computer, went back to bed until 10:00 am, worked for a couple of hours, then got extremely anxious, took a prescribed pill, then slept for another 90 minutes.
We can start our new journey together... because this feeling S-U-C-K-S... mostly the emotional regret... not as much the physical one.
I was actually perusing through this forum last night... so the anticipation of regret was already setting in early on Sunday evening. I have gone down this road too many times... I am NOT doing it again!!
Fortunately for me, I had a "work from home" day today which means that I booted my computer, went back to bed until 10:00 am, worked for a couple of hours, then got extremely anxious, took a prescribed pill, then slept for another 90 minutes.
We can start our new journey together... because this feeling S-U-C-K-S... mostly the emotional regret... not as much the physical one.
I was actually perusing through this forum last night... so the anticipation of regret was already setting in early on Sunday evening. I have gone down this road too many times... I am NOT doing it again!!
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Originally Posted by Forward12
Why didn't you reach out before you chose the stupidity?
I know from my person and professional life that the best advice is to look ahead... not replay what has already happened.
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Originally Posted by TeeJayVerm
Isn't this a version of "shaming"? He can't undo what he did so maybe the advice is to encourage him to reach out the next time he feels tempted?
I know from my person and professional life that the best advice is to look ahead... not replay what has already happened.
I know from my person and professional life that the best advice is to look ahead... not replay what has already happened.
Hopefully if any of us is tempted, SR will be the first place we come to.
And honesty, even if it's brutal, which this wasn't really, I think serves us all best on these boards.
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" because this feeling S-U-C-K-S... mostly the emotional regret... not as much the physical one. " .
You are so right TeeJay. I relapsed 11 days ago and I still feel emotionally horrible.
I think we sort of forget the physical agony when we start feeling better. The emotional regret stays with us longer. I hope I never forget mine.
You are so right TeeJay. I relapsed 11 days ago and I still feel emotionally horrible.
I think we sort of forget the physical agony when we start feeling better. The emotional regret stays with us longer. I hope I never forget mine.
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Originally Posted by Rar
" because this feeling S-U-C-K-S... mostly the emotional regret... not as much the physical one. " .
You are so right TeeJay. I relapsed 11 days ago and I still feel emotionally horrible.
I think we sort of forget the physical agony when we start feeling better. The emotional regret stays with us longer. I hope I never forget mine.
You are so right TeeJay. I relapsed 11 days ago and I still feel emotionally horrible.
I think we sort of forget the physical agony when we start feeling better. The emotional regret stays with us longer. I hope I never forget mine.
I know what you're saying Rar. We go through all the struggles to stay sober and then when we feel better we have a harder time staying sober. I know for me I start feeling so good and then say to myself, a drink would be awesome right now. Then the cycle starts again! I need to remember how awful I feel the day after.
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No offense taken, It was my own choice and stupidity yes... I cant change it but only look foward and start again.. Im only 28 and i do not want to spend any of my life the way i just spent the last 24hrs absolute hell and regret with my emotions and thoughts beating me up inside... Im seeking help for this through councelling And im gonna go to AA and start again. Pushing myself to go to work today.
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