Today is day one
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Today is day one
I just started my recovery today. I'm a 37 year old female who has had a serious drinking problem on and off for about 8 years. I have not been in trouble with the law, I'm still married and I still have my corporate job. That's not to say that I probably should have encountered all 3 and I'm so so lucky that I haven't. The first time I tried to quit was last year. It lasted 90 days and on day 91, I had a glass of wine and slowly spiraled down again. I, too, was a closet drinker. It finally got to the point where I simply could not hide it anymore. My husband (he would never hit me) got so frustrated the other day that he actually punched a hole in the wall. I don't blame him. This has got to be so frustrating for him. Yesterday my mom came over and she could totally tell that I had been drinking. So, she went to my closet and confirmed. I'm sure her heart is broken into a million pieces. This simply cannot happen anymore. I can't keep living like this...not just for the people around me but especially for myself.
I hope our support can help you get sober for good. 
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Welcome, ThisHasToEnd. I was filled with remorse & regret when I first came here, too. The feeling of no longer being alone helped me find the courage to change my life. Over 10 yrs. later, I still sign on here every day - it's a wonderful place for encouragement. You can do it!
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Welcome
Sounds like this time around you have a much better understanding where just one will leads. No matter how much time a alcoholic quits it's the same old story when we try to drink normally. It will always spiral back to the same or worse place again.
Glad you found us.
Sounds like this time around you have a much better understanding where just one will leads. No matter how much time a alcoholic quits it's the same old story when we try to drink normally. It will always spiral back to the same or worse place again.
Glad you found us.
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Originally Posted by gettingsmarter 
Welcome
Sounds like this time around you have a much better understanding where just one will leads. No matter how much time a alcoholic quits it's the same old story when we try to drink normally. It will always spiral back to the same or worse place again.
Glad you found us.
Sounds like this time around you have a much better understanding where just one will leads. No matter how much time a alcoholic quits it's the same old story when we try to drink normally. It will always spiral back to the same or worse place again.
Glad you found us.
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ThisHasTo - ah the hiding. It's one of the worst parts of this sick sick problem. The feeling I get when I don't have to worry about my wife or son finding a bottle stuffed under a cushion or behind a book is such a freeing thing. To think most of the world just walks around like that!
Welcome to the boards. So much wisdom here.
Welcome to the boards. So much wisdom here.
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Welocome to SR, this is a wonderful place to find support, and make sobriety stick. You con do this, spend some time reading and posting on here, you will be able to find what will work for you. Glad you are here.
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Originally Posted by Forward12
Welcome to the forum! Do you have an AA meeting or other support group you are going to attend?
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