Awake61

I've been a member here for a bit and have found much support and suggestions. But one suggestion I haven't followed, is probably one I should have gone for first. Over and over I have pledged 24 hour sobriety, only to find myself going to my job and drinking. I honestly I thought I could work in a liquor store in early sobriety and make it work. I have kept thinking, oh it's the only job I can get blahhhhhhhh....... well, finally I have found myself drinking as soon as I get to work and trying to pass off myself as sober. Guess what it didn't work! and it wasn't going to. I'm off for the next few days, not sure if I'll have the position much longer and you know what - I shouldn't be working there to begin with. So, I'm now looking for a job, any job that is not around booze. Maybe, along with more group contact I can make this work. Please forgive me for my dishonesty. But us drunks can rationalize anything.

JimiC

Ya, working in a liquor store during early sobriety must be tough. Sounds like a wise move to find another job. A couple of weeks ago I ate at a place with large windows looking right into an adjacent liquor store. Hundreds of bottles of poison were a few feet from me which made me uncomfortable. I wish you all the best!

Dee74

I'm glad you're thinking about another line of work Awake - I would be too

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MindfulMan

I've known sober bartenders that were raging alcoholics but were in recovery and serving drinks all night.

One of them said something to me that I'll never forget. "Watching people get ********* drunk, over and over and night after night is all the convincing I need that I don't want to drink anymore."

I think it's possible for SOME, but not until they get some strong and significant sober time under their belt.

Glad you're finding new work. I'm pretty resolved, but I wouldn't tempt myself by working as a wine pourer at a winery, which I would be very good at.

Cosima11

Ha this is my exact situation. Obviously it's probably the #1 thing you shouldn't do in early recovery but I was already in the industry and watching people's behaviors became a strong reminder of what I don't want to go back to. There was even a regular who died recently from mixing too much alcohol and xanax (not connected to where I work but still- he was there often). Now I just want to "help" people but don't feel it's my place to say anything.

Really surreal experiences being newly sober but yes I'd suggest finding a job where it's not within arms reach if the temptation is still too strong.

Cosima11

Also it's very common for servers/bartenders to drink on the job in some places but I strangely never did. I didn't see the point in risking it, knowing I could and would just drink later. So I think that's the only reason it worked for me.

A bar is a bar but I found a new one to work at when I quit so I could make a clean break from the co-workers I used to sometimes hang out with after work.

aasharon90

It takes an awful lot of courage to admit
when we are wrong and take responsibility
for our actions. Huge...!!!!

You recognize your addiction and now
want to do something healthy and positive
about it. Doing the footwork by looking
for a job not involving alcohol and learning
how to strengthen your recovery program.

Small steps of action as you move forward
to building a strong solid recovery foundation
and life to live upon for yrs to come.

Continue to ask for suggestions and
remember that you never have to go
thru this journey of change in your life
alone because you now have a recovery
support system here in SR to gently
guide you alone the way.

Never stop listening, learning, absorbing
and applying helpful recovery tools to your
new recovery life.

Rar

Glad you're recommitting to sobriety again Awake. Changing jobs will be a positive step for you. You can do this. Keep posting and stay with us.