Little confession
Little confession
I'm back, but I have been for a while. I made a new account, Tubesy, because I was ashamed of coming back so often. That is no longer the case. I am proud that I am able to admit it, and come clean. Regardless, I have been sober since December 8th. I made it through my first birthday sober since 17 on Friday, and for me, that was huge. What's more, I cherished it, it was more special than my usual blackout at a bar.
I have some issues still, feeling down some days, but I am at least feeling again. Love, pain, regret, happiness, gratitude (the most valuable). I am learning to live again, and it's a good feeling.
No more hiding or feeling ashamed, I am proud of myself.
I have some issues still, feeling down some days, but I am at least feeling again. Love, pain, regret, happiness, gratitude (the most valuable). I am learning to live again, and it's a good feeling.
No more hiding or feeling ashamed, I am proud of myself.
I knew somebody would suspect something D! Thanks for always being there.
And to everyone else, thanks for the kind replies. Last time I was doing it for friends and family, I think I've been able to do it alone this time is because it's for me. I want to live the rest of my life sober. That said, I am not stupid enough to become overconfident again and will not repeat the mistake of leaving here, and not posting.
I realize I'm still in early recovery, so the feelings haven't completely balanced, but I am doing much better than I was in the first few weeks.
No more Houdini's.
And to everyone else, thanks for the kind replies. Last time I was doing it for friends and family, I think I've been able to do it alone this time is because it's for me. I want to live the rest of my life sober. That said, I am not stupid enough to become overconfident again and will not repeat the mistake of leaving here, and not posting.
I realize I'm still in early recovery, so the feelings haven't completely balanced, but I am doing much better than I was in the first few weeks.
No more Houdini's.
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