120 days
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120 days
Hi Friends,
Just a short note to say that I'm at 120 days sober and it's going well.
My main problem was the inability to stop once started, I tried moderation and failed so took the decision to stop, for good.
I find that thoughts of alcohol have started to fade and like anything in life, once you have decided to make a change and then lived that change over and over for a period of time, it becomes the norm.
I'm finding a reinvigorated ability to stay on top of day to day issues in my life (family, friends, work) and I'm also happier and deal with short-term pressure points more easily.
The main thing, though, is being free from any sense of shame or guilt due to my irresponsible behaviour during a drunken bender.
All the best and I hope your journeys bring you safely to Soberville.
D
Just a short note to say that I'm at 120 days sober and it's going well.
My main problem was the inability to stop once started, I tried moderation and failed so took the decision to stop, for good.
I find that thoughts of alcohol have started to fade and like anything in life, once you have decided to make a change and then lived that change over and over for a period of time, it becomes the norm.
I'm finding a reinvigorated ability to stay on top of day to day issues in my life (family, friends, work) and I'm also happier and deal with short-term pressure points more easily.
The main thing, though, is being free from any sense of shame or guilt due to my irresponsible behaviour during a drunken bender.
All the best and I hope your journeys bring you safely to Soberville.
D
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b0,
I still think back sometimes and cringe to myself on the insane decisions I made while drinking.
It wasn't just when I was fully intoxicated, but also when I was hungover...still a bit drunk really. Also the poor decisions I made between my binges.
During my entire life, since I was a little kid, the real me was never really there. What was there was a chemically altered me.
Now clean, the real me is showing through. I am a pretty cool person.
It is sad to think how I lived a third or more of my life altered by my physical and mental addiction.
If I could just get off this bp medication I would be fully clean.
I choose to live in the now. I learned from the past. I prepare for the future. I fight to live in the now. Life is a fleeting gift. My eminent demise make each moment more special.
Fretting over past events and future negative potentials is something I still do, but I make a conscious effort not to.
Thanks.
I still think back sometimes and cringe to myself on the insane decisions I made while drinking.
It wasn't just when I was fully intoxicated, but also when I was hungover...still a bit drunk really. Also the poor decisions I made between my binges.
During my entire life, since I was a little kid, the real me was never really there. What was there was a chemically altered me.
Now clean, the real me is showing through. I am a pretty cool person.
It is sad to think how I lived a third or more of my life altered by my physical and mental addiction.
If I could just get off this bp medication I would be fully clean.
I choose to live in the now. I learned from the past. I prepare for the future. I fight to live in the now. Life is a fleeting gift. My eminent demise make each moment more special.
Fretting over past events and future negative potentials is something I still do, but I make a conscious effort not to.
Thanks.
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Originally Posted by D122y 
b0,
I still think back sometimes and cringe to myself on the insane decisions I made while drinking.
It wasn't just when I was fully intoxicated, but also when I was hungover...still a bit drunk really. Also the poor decisions I made between my binges.
During my entire life, since I was a little kid, the real me was never really there. What was there was a chemically altered me.
Now clean, the real me is showing through. I am a pretty cool person.
It is sad to think how I lived a third or more of my life altered by my physical and mental addiction.
If I could just get off this bp medication I would be fully clean.
I choose to live in the now. I learned from the past. I prepare for the future. I fight to live in the now. Life is a fleeting gift. My eminent demise make each moment more special.
Fretting over past events and future negative potentials is something I still do, but I make a conscious effort not to.
Thanks.
I still think back sometimes and cringe to myself on the insane decisions I made while drinking.
It wasn't just when I was fully intoxicated, but also when I was hungover...still a bit drunk really. Also the poor decisions I made between my binges.
During my entire life, since I was a little kid, the real me was never really there. What was there was a chemically altered me.
Now clean, the real me is showing through. I am a pretty cool person.
It is sad to think how I lived a third or more of my life altered by my physical and mental addiction.
If I could just get off this bp medication I would be fully clean.
I choose to live in the now. I learned from the past. I prepare for the future. I fight to live in the now. Life is a fleeting gift. My eminent demise make each moment more special.
Fretting over past events and future negative potentials is something I still do, but I make a conscious effort not to.
Thanks.
I also agree with the 'cool person' comment. We all have to learn to love ourselves and that comes from truly understanding ourselves and the complicated factors that make up our lives. I fully believe, now, that this is only truly possible when free from alcohol.
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