lessgravity

Stressed about work, lots of deadlines, boss not happy with me.

But I didn't drink yesterday while the wife was away. So on my way to the subway this morning I didn't have to think about where I forgot I hid the bottles.

As I locked up the apartment, the thought "sh-t I need to clean up the bottles" crossed my mind. But I didn't have to. So that's a win.

Happy President's Day everyone.

Eaglelizard

Nothing to hide, nothing to fear. Have a good one!

Mizzuno

Onward and Upward!

You got this. Have a good day at the office even if the boss is not happy. You are sober and killing it! Keep up the stellar work!

saoutchik

Keep going Gravity.

I hope work goes OK today.

ScottFromWI

Nice work LessG. I found an old stashed ( empty ) beer can behind a pile of stuff in my garage the other day, it's probably been there for at least 5 years. Great reminder of how silly I was to think that I was hiding my problem.

lessgravity

Yes - that line of thinking is one of my focuses these days. We never hid anything from the reality of our lives. I think of "hiding" my drinking these days more as just "cheating" - sure I got away with it in terms of my wife not walking in on my with a pint of vodka in my hand as I snuck behind the kitchen door cooking dinner - but it effected each and every aspect of my life, whether I let myself acknowledge that or not.

And the person I was most lying to, cheating, hiding from and betraying was, of course, myself. I'd like to trust myself again.

No one is coming to save me.

SoberLeigh

Very well done, lessgravity.

I found the need to hide evidence of my drinking so humiliating. Isn't it liberating to have nothing to hide!!!!

Spoiler alert: there are so many more benefits of sobriety yet to be discovered . Buckle your seatbelt for one fantastic ride!

lessgravity

SL - thank you! Life is hard enough, right? I can't wait to get my head back. Can't wait to be able to trust myself.

SoberLeigh

For sure!!!

MidnightRider

Fantastic !

I totally get where you are coming from!

I just spilled out 3 bottles this morning ...(from their hidden places)
So my Home is "clean" too.

Day 1

lessgravity

In the end, we aren't hiding a thing.

SoberLeigh

So glad that you are back with us, MidnightRider. Stay close.

Hawkeye13

Sounds sort of like you were / are on the cusp of some serious backlash.
I was too.

What I can tell you from own experience is keep slogging through the back log of avoided work on a daily basis, continue to care for your health, and you might be surprised how quickly you get back on track and even ahead.

Your brain will sharpen and clear, you'll start sleeping well, and that little growing bubble of hope and pride that you can do this-you can be a sober person--will grow into a foundation of genuine well-being.

lessgravity

Hawk - I'm going to return to this. Thank you for your words.

No one is coming to save me.

Hevyn

Very proud of you on your Day 13, LG. Hoping your work day went better than expected.
The fog will lift, the sun will shine.