Day 82 today and in a horrible mood
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Day 82 today and in a horrible mood
Damn the pink cloud may be lifting. Haven’t had a close encounter with alcohol in 82 days. Been a pretty smooth ride. But I’m miserable today and dreading going out to dinner tonight without drinking. Rather curl up and sleep for days.
Thanks for listening.
Thanks for listening.
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I find that the Serenity prayer is a lifesaver for me. I repeat it until I believe it. It gets me thru some rough spots.
Congrats on nearly three months sober!
Keep going, it gets better.
Congrats on nearly three months sober!
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Hi RUL - I'm glad you wanted to talk about this.
Even though 82 days is a wonderful accomplishment, it's quite early in your recovery. You're still adjusting to a new life without alcohol in it. I drank 30 yrs. It was part of almost everything I did. I remember feeling resentful those first few months - though deep down, I knew I wasn't missing out on a thing. I proved it was no longer fun, & I couldn't trust myself once it was in my system. Still, that little bit of doubt lingered. I dug in and got over the hurdles. Sometimes I cried & felt sorry for myself. I knew in my heart it would take me down if I picked up again - I just kept remembering how horrible things had been just before I quit.
I hope you can ride this out and stay strong. We're with you.
Even though 82 days is a wonderful accomplishment, it's quite early in your recovery. You're still adjusting to a new life without alcohol in it. I drank 30 yrs. It was part of almost everything I did. I remember feeling resentful those first few months - though deep down, I knew I wasn't missing out on a thing. I proved it was no longer fun, & I couldn't trust myself once it was in my system. Still, that little bit of doubt lingered. I dug in and got over the hurdles. Sometimes I cried & felt sorry for myself. I knew in my heart it would take me down if I picked up again - I just kept remembering how horrible things had been just before I quit.
I hope you can ride this out and stay strong. We're with you.
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EVERYBODY has bad days, bad moods and bad attitudes.......sobriety isn't unicorns frolicking in our yards every day.......it's the ability to accept them and get thru them - life on life's terms.
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Miserable days happen whether you are sober or not.
And there is a chance that tomorrow might be just as miserable, that seems to be how it works for me. 90% of my days are pretty routine, 5% are pretty miserable and they often come together for some reason. And on about 5% of the days, I can do no wrong and I should buy lottery tickets because everything is going my way.
No matter what kind of day you are having, keep your balance, it will pass.
And there is a chance that tomorrow might be just as miserable, that seems to be how it works for me. 90% of my days are pretty routine, 5% are pretty miserable and they often come together for some reason. And on about 5% of the days, I can do no wrong and I should buy lottery tickets because everything is going my way.
No matter what kind of day you are having, keep your balance, it will pass.
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