Uncharted Territory
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Uncharted Territory
40 Days hasn’t happened in over a decade
I seem to be at the point where I’m appreciating family and such and an odd thing has happened- things like social identity and the “mask” I wore in public matter not at all to me
I can’t put this into words very well, but I’m bare bones now
Did alcohol make me feel like this stuff even mattered? I think it did, I just don’t know how it did.
This is my clarity.
I seem to be at the point where I’m appreciating family and such and an odd thing has happened- things like social identity and the “mask” I wore in public matter not at all to me
I can’t put this into words very well, but I’m bare bones now
Did alcohol make me feel like this stuff even mattered? I think it did, I just don’t know how it did.
This is my clarity.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Posts: 366
Rodney, I really can relate to what you are saying. Please keep thinking this stuff through out loud. It's helpful.
I'm only on day 4. And I've been here many times (too many) times before. But something feels different. It's something like you are saying . . . like the need for the "mask" isn't there now. I never really knew that it was, but now that it isn't there, it must have been there before.
I don't know what I'm saying.
For example, in the past I always said I would never use AA. It wasn't my style. I'm not much of a joiner in general.
But this time . . . I don't know . . . why the heck not try it? I live in a small community and the only meeting is on Sunday nights. I may go next Sunday just to check it out. If I don't like it, so what? Nothing lost.
I can now see, in retrospect, that my reasoning in the past to not try AA was more about ego, image . . . something like that.
We are all just slobs trying to get through life. Why did I think I was some special slob, ya know?
I don't know.
I'm only on day 4. And I've been here many times (too many) times before. But something feels different. It's something like you are saying . . . like the need for the "mask" isn't there now. I never really knew that it was, but now that it isn't there, it must have been there before.
I don't know what I'm saying.
For example, in the past I always said I would never use AA. It wasn't my style. I'm not much of a joiner in general.
But this time . . . I don't know . . . why the heck not try it? I live in a small community and the only meeting is on Sunday nights. I may go next Sunday just to check it out. If I don't like it, so what? Nothing lost.
I can now see, in retrospect, that my reasoning in the past to not try AA was more about ego, image . . . something like that.
We are all just slobs trying to get through life. Why did I think I was some special slob, ya know?
I don't know.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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Congrats on your sober time Rodney.
I also found a new confidence and trust in my own integrity. Rather than always looking to others for validation, I trusted my gut a lot more.
It was a revelation to me
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I also found a new confidence and trust in my own integrity. Rather than always looking to others for validation, I trusted my gut a lot more.
It was a revelation to me
D
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