stillsleeping

I've been trying to post this stupid thread for weeks. Okay, not exactly trying - every morning I say I'm going to, then I don't, them I'm glad I didn't because now I can pick up on the way home. Yay - I get to drink for another day!
Yeah, well, no more. I've burned through our savings, three credit cards and two loans. My dreams are moving from unsettling to downright upsetting. I don't want to spend Christmas off my head.
I'm on my way to work and I just realised I spilled beer on this dress last night. Need to buy some deodorant before I get in. I think it's worth adding that to the record.

FreeOwl

Do you HAVE to.....

Or do you WANT to?

I’ve been there.

I’m sober now.

It’s much, much better.

You can, too.

Wigglyworm

Welcome back stillsleeping,

Feel free to join us in the December thread if you would like. Looking forward to a sober Christmas.

Hope you have a great day and stay strong on the way home.

Obladi

No day is better than today!

Power through on your way home - it's not that hard, really. Just make up your mind that you won't go on auto-pilot because that's not a real thing; what we do is make up our minds to just let the addiction drive.

I'm just 2 days in, but it's better already.

Strawberry18

We can do this together !!! This is my first hour xx

Dee74

I'm glad you posted stillsleeping

I don;t think it's ever too late to turn things around - or too soon to start living the life you want to lead.

Obviously you're going to have to make some changes & life is not gong to be unicorns and candy floss for a little while... but it really is for the better - I promise

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bluedog97

I know just what you mean. I’ll quit tomorrow, or next week, or next month. As long as it’s not today. Its like Groundhog Day.

Good job finally making the first step in quitting.

tomsteve

glad ya made it back,still. back in february ya typed this:
Five years I came here, losing my life to booze and coke. Now I'm poking my phone, close to puking up two bottles of wine and eighteen neurofen plus.

it reads like the progression is happening.
FeeOwl pointed out something important:
do you WANT to get sober?
do you WANT to stop drinking FOR GOOD?
are you WILLING to do whatever is necessary?
are you WILLING to put in the foootwork?
that last question is because recovery doesnt happen by osmosis- theres no magical dust, no magical potion or saying that mysteriously makes a person sober for life. its something that requires action.

hope ya stick around this time. the sober life is something youd enjoy

stillsleeping

I did it, I did it!! A whole, pure sober night! And I'd had a horrible day and seriously just wanted to blot it out, and I didn't.
Thanks so much to everyone who replied above. I know I didn't write back but I read and took it all to heart. And a meagre week later (lol) I made it a whole night without a drink

Red78

YAY!!!!! Go you, awesome achievement.. Hold onto this as you now know that you can get through 1 whole day without booze...

decchemist

Good for you.

Try for 2 nights now.

stillsleeping

Ahh thanks both! You were so quick!

This has to be forever. Each time I've relapsed it's taken longer and longer to take that first step. Tomsteve's reminder about the last time I was here shocked the hell out of me - and it still took over a week to bite the bullet. Sobriety was the best thing I ever did for myself; now I've grabbed it's tail I can't let go...
Love to all here. I'm not hungover today! Xxxxxxxx

ChloeRose63

Stillsleeping,
Welcome back! It really does help to post and stay with us on SR. No matter what you are feeling just post it. It feels good to get it out and better when someone responds with support and empathy. I would be lost or dead without the people on SR. They are good friends to me and I love them very much.
Stay with us! Good going on waking up hangover free. Make it a good day!

Red78

Isn't it such an amazing feeling to wake up sober and face the day fresh, the longer you are sober the better it will get..

Dee74

The first of many Still

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Stronger2017

Well done stillsleeping🙂

Atye

The first days were the hardest. If you can determine what your triggers are and deal with them, it might be a little easierQUOTE=Red78;6714223]YAY!!!!! Go you, awesome achievement.. Hold onto this as you now know that you can get through 1 whole day without booze...
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AAPJ

Some may find this a bit odd but for me I couldn't think of giving up drinking FOREVER. So here's what I did. Amazing how much things changed with the substitution of one word:

I’ll drink tomorrow, or next week, or next month. As long as it’s not today.

This was my way of approaching sobriety one day at a time.

Vinificent

One Day At A Time is arguably the most repeated statement in recovery because IT WORKS! Like A said, we can't wrap our heads around "never drink again", but that's the Alcoholic Voice speaking. Do not drink today, and tomorrow the AV will be just a little quieter until it no longer has that control. Let your body heal, and all will be much clearer.

theVman31

Well done StillSleeping.
Some very good advice in this thread.
Now put it to action.
Join some other threads too maybe
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