1 year sober today and so very grateful!!
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1 year sober today and so very grateful!!
Hi all,
I haven’t posted for quite sometime but today as i reach 365 days of continuous sobriety I thought I would check in...
This time last year I was 30 kgs heavier and my life was in utter ruins, I was suicidal and going through a very very messy break up with my then finance of 10 years. I could not stand the Man I saw in the mirror and if it was not for my beautiful daughter who knows what I would have done.
Today that all seems like a distant memory it’s amazing how such a short period of time can bring so much positive change, when I look in the mirror now I see a man who has Made a stand and faced his demons head on and that makes me proud, Today i realise Iam enough.
I met a lovely women who is a non drinker and failing in love sober Has been a lovely experience and although it’s not as dramatic as it all felt drinking it feels very much realer and built of solid foundations.
It has not all been smooth sailing I had some really testing times in recovery, after 3 months my anxiety was through the roof and I was practically House bond and having panic attack’s regularly but instead of drinking I sought professional help and decided no matter what alcohol would only make it worse. And today Iam much much better although anxiety does still plague me occasionally I have come to accept myself as a flawed human being who is doing the best he can with what he has.
After 9 months sober my beloved boxer dog ruby died at the age of 8, taking her to the vets and knowing she was not going to make the operation was truly heartbreaking and I cried for 2 days straight but I the miracle was I never once thought of drinking. The thought of relapsing and blackening her memory was not an option I decided to celebrate her life instead and griev properly, to help with her death we got a French bulldog puppy and I have been busy taking care of her.
Iam honestly so grateful for my recovery and feel truly blessed I got a second chance at life as so many don’t...
Please believe this, that if Me a chronic binge drinking menace who tried to stop 100s of tines can stay sober and change my life so can you. Do not ever stop trying there is hope and you can do it. !!!
God bless
Herc
I haven’t posted for quite sometime but today as i reach 365 days of continuous sobriety I thought I would check in...
This time last year I was 30 kgs heavier and my life was in utter ruins, I was suicidal and going through a very very messy break up with my then finance of 10 years. I could not stand the Man I saw in the mirror and if it was not for my beautiful daughter who knows what I would have done.
Today that all seems like a distant memory it’s amazing how such a short period of time can bring so much positive change, when I look in the mirror now I see a man who has Made a stand and faced his demons head on and that makes me proud, Today i realise Iam enough.
I met a lovely women who is a non drinker and failing in love sober Has been a lovely experience and although it’s not as dramatic as it all felt drinking it feels very much realer and built of solid foundations.
It has not all been smooth sailing I had some really testing times in recovery, after 3 months my anxiety was through the roof and I was practically House bond and having panic attack’s regularly but instead of drinking I sought professional help and decided no matter what alcohol would only make it worse. And today Iam much much better although anxiety does still plague me occasionally I have come to accept myself as a flawed human being who is doing the best he can with what he has.
After 9 months sober my beloved boxer dog ruby died at the age of 8, taking her to the vets and knowing she was not going to make the operation was truly heartbreaking and I cried for 2 days straight but I the miracle was I never once thought of drinking. The thought of relapsing and blackening her memory was not an option I decided to celebrate her life instead and griev properly, to help with her death we got a French bulldog puppy and I have been busy taking care of her.
Iam honestly so grateful for my recovery and feel truly blessed I got a second chance at life as so many don’t...
Please believe this, that if Me a chronic binge drinking menace who tried to stop 100s of tines can stay sober and change my life so can you. Do not ever stop trying there is hope and you can do it. !!!
God bless
Herc
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Thanks for checking back in Hercules and congrats on a year sober, that's fantastic! Glad to hear that you sought help for your anxiety too, that was a big help for me as well. Very sorry to hear about your dog, that's fantastic though that you chose to stay sober and celebrate her life.
Thanks for sharing your story over the past year, it's an inspiration to all of us, whether we have 10 years or 10 minutes of sobriety. Keep up the good work and don't be a stranger!
Thanks for sharing your story over the past year, it's an inspiration to all of us, whether we have 10 years or 10 minutes of sobriety. Keep up the good work and don't be a stranger!
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Location: Baton Rouge, La.
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Congratulations on your 1 yr sobriety
and thank you for sharing your experiences,
strengths and hopes with us. In doing so
helps others who are still struggling with
addiction and gives them hope to continue
striving for a life free of addiction.
Good Job..!!!!
and thank you for sharing your experiences,
strengths and hopes with us. In doing so
helps others who are still struggling with
addiction and gives them hope to continue
striving for a life free of addiction.
Good Job..!!!!
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Congratulations Herc! That is wonderful. What a fantastic update.
I'm so sorry about the loss of your sweet pup Ruby. We will continue to face hardships, heartbreak and setbacks.. and it sounds like you handled the challenge and sadness in a beautiful and healthy way. Wonderful to see it as an opportunitiy to celebrate your sweet dog's memory and her love for you.
Way to go! Continued best to you, and congratulations on your new puppy!
I'm so sorry about the loss of your sweet pup Ruby. We will continue to face hardships, heartbreak and setbacks.. and it sounds like you handled the challenge and sadness in a beautiful and healthy way. Wonderful to see it as an opportunitiy to celebrate your sweet dog's memory and her love for you.
Way to go! Continued best to you, and congratulations on your new puppy!
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Congratulations, Herc - a whole year is so wonderful. I'm so glad you honored dear Ruby by not drinking. As we've found out, it doesn't do a thing to help us & only prolongs our grieving. Facing up to things with a clear head is the only way. Proud of you!
I'm glad you didn't drink over it. 
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Congrats Herc on the one year milestone! Sorry about your dog Ruby. 8 is awfully young for a dog to be taken from you. I drank through the loss of my old dog and I agree you don't grieve properly that way. Anyways great job!
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