8 Months Later
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8 Months Later
Hi Everyone,
8 months ago today I was feeling chained by my addition to alcohol. Most every morning I woke up with a freight train running through my head, feeling as though I wasn't capable of getting through the day. Some days I spent the entire day in bed. Feeling guilty and ashamed of how I was living my life was the norm. My anxiety was through the roof, worse than it ever had been in the past. I was sad, lazy, anxious, didn't care about anything and I felt completely hopeless...until it was cocktail hour. It wasn't until my 3rd cocktail that I began to feel better and forget about how horrible my quality of life had become.
One morning, after my DH and I had drank far too many bottles of wine together the night before, I woke up feeling dreadful (per usual) and decided that it was time to change. Life couldn't continue to go in the direction I was headed any longer.
And so...my journey began. Somehow, through the grace of God I googled alcoholism and found SR. I came here every morning and every night, reading and posting. There have been many close calls, but this site and the people here truly helped me keep moving forward.
8 months later, I'm BACK! My thinking is clear, I feel happiness again, old hobbies have returned, relationships are better and I look and feel better than I have in years. There's still a long road ahead of me and I know that I must remain vigilant, but I have hope again and I finally can see the possibilities I've always known were there for me, becoming reality.
For anyone out there who is struggling and thinking that they may not be able to stay sober. Know that if you honestly want sobriety, you will go through anything to get to the place of peacefulness. The difference for me this time was that I finally surrendered and made the choice to take alcohol out of my life. By doing so, the fight was over.
Wishing everyone the best in your own journey.
Thank you so much SR!
8 months ago today I was feeling chained by my addition to alcohol. Most every morning I woke up with a freight train running through my head, feeling as though I wasn't capable of getting through the day. Some days I spent the entire day in bed. Feeling guilty and ashamed of how I was living my life was the norm. My anxiety was through the roof, worse than it ever had been in the past. I was sad, lazy, anxious, didn't care about anything and I felt completely hopeless...until it was cocktail hour. It wasn't until my 3rd cocktail that I began to feel better and forget about how horrible my quality of life had become.
One morning, after my DH and I had drank far too many bottles of wine together the night before, I woke up feeling dreadful (per usual) and decided that it was time to change. Life couldn't continue to go in the direction I was headed any longer.
And so...my journey began. Somehow, through the grace of God I googled alcoholism and found SR. I came here every morning and every night, reading and posting. There have been many close calls, but this site and the people here truly helped me keep moving forward.
8 months later, I'm BACK! My thinking is clear, I feel happiness again, old hobbies have returned, relationships are better and I look and feel better than I have in years. There's still a long road ahead of me and I know that I must remain vigilant, but I have hope again and I finally can see the possibilities I've always known were there for me, becoming reality.
For anyone out there who is struggling and thinking that they may not be able to stay sober. Know that if you honestly want sobriety, you will go through anything to get to the place of peacefulness. The difference for me this time was that I finally surrendered and made the choice to take alcohol out of my life. By doing so, the fight was over.
Wishing everyone the best in your own journey.
Thank you so much SR!
It's amazing how much better life is when you're sober! 
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