Sober 30th Birthday
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Sober 30th Birthday
And it was fabulous! I was really worried that if I quit drinking that I wouldn't be able to have fun. I've equated "partying" to getting sh** faced drunk for most of my life. I really don't think I've had a sober birthday since 12? I thought being sober meant my life would be over.
But it's been a month since my last drink, and I've seriously never been happier. My whole perspective has changed. I had a raspberry tea, and then a virgin strawberry daquri. They were delicious. Everything was funnier, brighter, and tastier. I savored each moment without a cloud of poison swirling around my brain. My husband and I had great conversation and were so relaxed. Totally sober!
One thing that was uncomfortable and unexpected was how breathless I felt. Like a desperate pang in the heart you get when you see an old boyfriend with a new girl. For a few moments, I felt that way about my old flame alcohol. Needy and clingy.
But instead of triggering a craving, it reconfirmed for me how toxic my relationship with alcohol is. I never understood that saying - "relationship with alcohol." Until we broke up. And it was like reliving that first experience of a painful breakup where you physically ache in your soul when you see him again.
I don't want to be that angsty teenage girl anymore. I don't need that pos in my life. I deserve to feel all of the colors of the world and not just shades of gray.
For anyone reading trying to decide to quit - do it! It'll be hard breaking through the perception that you need to drink to have fun of relax, but you don't! And I don't have to give my Monday (Tues, Wed, Thurs) to a post birthday hangover!!
But it's been a month since my last drink, and I've seriously never been happier. My whole perspective has changed. I had a raspberry tea, and then a virgin strawberry daquri. They were delicious. Everything was funnier, brighter, and tastier. I savored each moment without a cloud of poison swirling around my brain. My husband and I had great conversation and were so relaxed. Totally sober!
One thing that was uncomfortable and unexpected was how breathless I felt. Like a desperate pang in the heart you get when you see an old boyfriend with a new girl. For a few moments, I felt that way about my old flame alcohol. Needy and clingy.
But instead of triggering a craving, it reconfirmed for me how toxic my relationship with alcohol is. I never understood that saying - "relationship with alcohol." Until we broke up. And it was like reliving that first experience of a painful breakup where you physically ache in your soul when you see him again.
I don't want to be that angsty teenage girl anymore. I don't need that pos in my life. I deserve to feel all of the colors of the world and not just shades of gray.
For anyone reading trying to decide to quit - do it! It'll be hard breaking through the perception that you need to drink to have fun of relax, but you don't! And I don't have to give my Monday (Tues, Wed, Thurs) to a post birthday hangover!!
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First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I'm so glad that you had a good time! I can really relate to your description of feeling "breathless and clingy" regarding alcohol. I'm 28 days into my sobriety and I know when I go out to a restaurant my eyes linger a little too long on other people's drinks. Much like what you realized about your "relationship" with alcohol, I realize when I'm staring at someone's cocktail that it's proof positive that I am an alcoholic. Non-alcoholic don't stare longingly at drinks!
I'm glad you're finding happiness in your sobriety!
I'm glad you're finding happiness in your sobriety!
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