Youre not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness--- <3
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Youre not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness--- <3
Just a reminder to self and others.
Life is a confusing experience, and many of us took desperate wrong turns, many times over.
You are still worthy of love, just as you are. You are worthy of understanding. Worthy of being treated well, again. Worthy of your own time and good will towards yourself.
Life is a confusing experience, and many of us took desperate wrong turns, many times over.
You are still worthy of love, just as you are. You are worthy of understanding. Worthy of being treated well, again. Worthy of your own time and good will towards yourself.
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Thanks you for this!
I was literally just about to post that I'm coming to the realization that I was ready to take my life with alcohol. The sadness that I felt because of this void inside of me was so deep for so long that I didn't know how else to manage. I had to drink to face my fears, I had to drink to speak, I had to drink to sleep, I had to drink to function, and I was ready to die and alcohol was my aide in that effort. I'm ready to live now, I'm ready for the sadness to go away, I'm ready for the pain to stop and I'm ready to fight this fight head on.
I was literally just about to post that I'm coming to the realization that I was ready to take my life with alcohol. The sadness that I felt because of this void inside of me was so deep for so long that I didn't know how else to manage. I had to drink to face my fears, I had to drink to speak, I had to drink to sleep, I had to drink to function, and I was ready to die and alcohol was my aide in that effort. I'm ready to live now, I'm ready for the sadness to go away, I'm ready for the pain to stop and I'm ready to fight this fight head on.
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tr4vionz... Every single day in my life that I woke up hungover, literally, the first words and thoughts out of my mouth were, more times than I can count, "I want to commit suicide" --- or "I should KILL myself".
Yesterday it was in the form of a question to myself, or God... The question was, "How long would it take to die if I slit my wrists?"
I was, of course, hungover.
Other times, one of which happened during a blackout several months ago, I was lying on my bed saying over and over "I want to die. Please let me just die". I dont remember it. I was told this by my boyfriend the next morning.
The suicidal part of me is strong with alcohol.
BUT I WANT TO LIVE. AND SO DO YOU.
We must have been pretty sad, you and me, to want to kill ourselves. I know.
But we are going to LIVE. Today, we choose life.
Yesterday it was in the form of a question to myself, or God... The question was, "How long would it take to die if I slit my wrists?"
I was, of course, hungover.
Other times, one of which happened during a blackout several months ago, I was lying on my bed saying over and over "I want to die. Please let me just die". I dont remember it. I was told this by my boyfriend the next morning.
The suicidal part of me is strong with alcohol.
BUT I WANT TO LIVE. AND SO DO YOU.
We must have been pretty sad, you and me, to want to kill ourselves. I know.
But we are going to LIVE. Today, we choose life.
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