So tired.
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So tired.
I'm here again, I wish I knew how I end up here everytime. I'm laying here miserable. I know I'm killing myself and yet have so much to live for. I have to try again, I have to succeed, I have to survive. Sorry for the stupid post, I had to say something.
NOT STUPID!!
You posted- a call for help. There is always someone @ SR. In your real world- you need support. Meetings are free- they offer me a connection and a way of getting out of my head space. ,Lots around- rehab, detox, GP, counsellors, priest, SMART, - your choice, and you have to make that effort.
Support and empathy to you.
You posted- a call for help. There is always someone @ SR. In your real world- you need support. Meetings are free- they offer me a connection and a way of getting out of my head space. ,Lots around- rehab, detox, GP, counsellors, priest, SMART, - your choice, and you have to make that effort.
Support and empathy to you.
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Not stupid at all! We have all been some version of "there."
Don't drink today. Take care of yourself. Use SR for plan ideas, go to an AA meeting if you feel up to it. Repeat tomorrow.
Hope to see you around. You can make this your last time quitting.
Don't drink today. Take care of yourself. Use SR for plan ideas, go to an AA meeting if you feel up to it. Repeat tomorrow.
Hope to see you around. You can make this your last time quitting.
The fact is that most alcoholics, for reasons yet obscure, have lost the power of choice in drink. Our so-called will power becomes practically nonexistent. We are unable, at certain times, to bring into our consciousness with sufficient force the memory of the suffering and humiliation of even a week or a month ago. We are without defense against the first drink.
This paragraph from the BB of AA pg 24 was still on my clip board as I posted it to another thread this morning. Many of us got into the rinse repeat cycle - some got out in different ways.
Consider reading friends stories on SR with a year or more of sobriety. Likely you'll identify with some things perhaps.
This paragraph from the BB of AA pg 24 was still on my clip board as I posted it to another thread this morning. Many of us got into the rinse repeat cycle - some got out in different ways.
Consider reading friends stories on SR with a year or more of sobriety. Likely you'll identify with some things perhaps.
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Day 2 is much better than Day 0. I'm on Day 26, and each day is still a hard-won battle for me. Right now my goal is to be able to wake up tomorrow and say it's Day 27. One day at a time is a very real thing. Whether it's here on SR, at an AA meeting, or someone else you trust, lean on others until you feel stronger. That's what I'm doing, and so far it's working.
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Legato525, well done on three days sober. I know what you mean about being miserable. I feel so low after a binge and each time it gets worse. Currently 20 days without a drink and I can honestly say my anxiety has reduced significantly. Not perfect but getting there. Absolutely shattered the whole time and had a horrible summer cold but feeling much more positive as I approach 3 weeks sober. Stick with it your doing great.
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I plan on it. I'm not around family and friends often, so to have community at my fingertips is another great tool. I have been reading so much here. You feel so lonely thinking everyone can do it but you. It feels better to know I'm not alone and that there are people who can help me, and just as important, people I can help.
It is miserable - remember that next time you're tempted! Good job on making it to day 3.
Reading and posting here helped me a lot. It is a relief to know that there are people all over the world who know just what to say and how to help you, particularly in those first few weeks.
And, SR is better than watching TV because no tempting beer commercials will flash across your screen :-)
Reading and posting here helped me a lot. It is a relief to know that there are people all over the world who know just what to say and how to help you, particularly in those first few weeks.
And, SR is better than watching TV because no tempting beer commercials will flash across your screen :-)
Leg,
AA or Dr.
If you can't stop. Go into either place and ask for help.
Booze is a killer. Folks get down on themselves and give up hope.
Next thing is blackout drinking and anything can happen...including suicide.
Thanks.
AA or Dr.
If you can't stop. Go into either place and ask for help.
Booze is a killer. Folks get down on themselves and give up hope.
Next thing is blackout drinking and anything can happen...including suicide.
Thanks.
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