Tomorrow
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Tomorrow
Wrote a long post and re-read it, it was so depressing so deleted it, bit of a struggle at the moment. So to you guys winning keep on winning and beat this stuff, I'll join you tomorrow.
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Pete
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why is this so ****** hard I dont like celery ,,,, so I dont eat it, I gave up smoking so I dont smoke, I hate drinking, but I keep doing its so ***** stupid, I am weepingI feel so **** up, I dont want to do this any more.
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Oh Peter, wish I could hug you.....just think of the booze as celery, ICK ICK. This wasn't meant to be easy, I've questioned it myself over and over and over. We both know the urge will leave, please fight it, keep thinking CELERY.
By the way I'm happy to meet you, I haven't been around for a bit, please hang tight.
Love and extra extra possitive tight hugs...hope you can feel them.....Denise
P.S. I love your name, I have an older brother who's called Pete...smiling at that now.
By the way I'm happy to meet you, I haven't been around for a bit, please hang tight.
Love and extra extra possitive tight hugs...hope you can feel them.....Denise
P.S. I love your name, I have an older brother who's called Pete...smiling at that now.
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I know it, Pete, I know the feeling well. I hate it drinking too, and yet I have allowed it to take great chunks of my life away from me. It's a disease; it's not like deciding not to eat celery. You DID quit smoking, though, and that shows how strong you can be. Just take it one step at a time - each moment you don't pick up that drink is another moment further along the path. Clearly those of us here can very strongly empathize - and we CARE about you. Do something else, go somewhere, talk to someone - just don't drink. Fight it with all you have.
Thinking of you,
Anne
Thinking of you,
Anne
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Pete - I've been in your situations many times before, I would quit for a few days, sometimes weeks, and once even a few months.. Was back drinking after telling myself I won't do it anymore.. No sense in beating yourself up man. For me, I needed to identify triggers what would set off my crazy thinking that perhaps I can handle just a couple.. Situations that would lead me to drink etc.. Start with Day 1 again !!! You can do it !!!
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Originally Posted by icecream pete
why is this so ****** hard I dont like celery ,,,, so I dont eat it, I gave up smoking so I dont smoke, I hate drinking, but I keep doing its so ***** stupid, I am weepingI feel so **** up, I dont want to do this any more.
Sorry
Pete
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Pete
I have the same illness/condition/behavioral disorder, whatever you want to call it. Addiction to a substance. Alcoholism. That's for you to decide, and only you. But you mirror back to me the desperate, lonely and isolated place I was in only a few short months ago.
My own resolve never worked until I got some help to get started, to understand why I was acting the way I did.
If you're like me, once you start drinking, it's usually an industrial size quantity before you stop. And the next day, the body and mind is in absolute shock, expecting more. How long we refuse to feed it is variable.
But the discomfort quickly becomes unbearable.
So I drink. Until the discomfort lapses and becomes the monotone sense of no senses, if that makes sense.
I needed others like me Pete. Try as I might, I couldn't lick my obsession alone.
Your post just chills me. I know those tears.
I've shed them countless times.
Come on in from the storm Pete.
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I remember how sobriety felt like such an impossibility. We're living proof it is possible. I felt the same way as you Pete, and many others here. I honestly thought, I would never make it past the next drink and the viscous cycle I had created. I made it through though and so can you. Draw strength from others. Alone we remain weak. Together we become strong.
LeAnne
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Hi Pete
Wise words above mate. I needed help too. I use AA, but there are other recovery programs. This place here is fantastic, but meeting others with the same problem and having a program to work is helping me enormously. The wonderful people here encouraged me to go to AA and I will do the same for you. Give it a shot. If you really want to quit drinking, it will do nothing but help you achieve your goal.
Drop the anvil Pete, find a program that helps you.
much love
JC
Wise words above mate. I needed help too. I use AA, but there are other recovery programs. This place here is fantastic, but meeting others with the same problem and having a program to work is helping me enormously. The wonderful people here encouraged me to go to AA and I will do the same for you. Give it a shot. If you really want to quit drinking, it will do nothing but help you achieve your goal.
Drop the anvil Pete, find a program that helps you.
much love
JC
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