wildflower70

Hello everyone,

I am on day 14 and almost drank last night. I looked at the bottles while at the store, drove home and contemplated going back. I paced in my living room for 10 mins, and then logged on to SR. After reading posts about the horrible "Day1's", I was quickly reminded of what would happen if I drank....sickness, anxiety, shame, and regret. I am so happy to be waking up today sober, and SR has played a huge role in my success. I may be alone on this Mother's Day, but because I am sober, I won't feel lonely.

Thanks for listening, and thank you for being here!
Cheers to another sober day

MrMcTell

Top work!

I could almost "enjoy" the battles at the beginning when I finally recognized thoughts of drinking a "just" a psychological effect of my addiction. That urge to drink is your addiction suffering. It means you are getting better.

FreeOwl

Well done.

Getting to meetings helped me a lot in these moments. Also coming on here as you did. Getting to the gym, going for a good hard run, anything to break the chain and put the AV on a shelf.

You can do this. Keep up the good work.

2ndhandrose

way to work those sober muscles, wildflower!

mecanix

Av screaming eh ? , let it bloomin' scream, good for nothing Av ..
go and do something more interesting , read a book , post , go to meetings .

Keep on

CreativeThinker

Nice job Wildflower! I've found that every time I've ignored my AV and moved past the urge...I get stronger. Keep going...

Happy Mothers Day!

Mattq2

Good for you wild flower. I learned to kind of laugh at my av. I don't know why but it helped me.

Dee74

I'm glad you got through wildflower
Why not post here more tho - support really helps?

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Tertor

I like that imagery!

ZenButterfly

My AV was pretty strong today. I wanted to go out for a glass of wine and I had a cappuccino instead. =)

D122y

After 2 years sober the AV doesn't scream...it wimpers and pouts . It nags.

wildflower70

Thanks everyone for the support!
I went to the same grocery store today (to get some sweets), and I walked right by that huge display of bottles, there must be thousands of them.
This time I said to my AV..."Don't even try, this mamma's not falling for it!"

HAHA, it kind-of felt like a little victory over that ugly beast!!

I will post more frequently Dee, especially when the AV starts screaming!!
Be safe, and be sober!!

MariahGayle

Fabulous! It is a victory

freshstart57

Nice going, Wildflower. You may not realize this, but you just practised AVRT- Addictive Voice Recognition Technique. It's powerful AND empowering, and it leaves you feeling strong, proud and capable. I liked that part about AVRT a lot, and I still do.

Lots more discussion of this in the Secular Connections forum about this if you are curious. You are doing GREAT! Onward!