I slipped again....
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I slipped again....
But it wasn't a full out binge, thankfully. I had to be at work early today and I made it in time. But I'm feeling awful about myself now. I AM committed to being sober tonight after work and this entire weekend! I had a plan for the weekend, but I think subconsciously I drank last night so I could actually get thru the weekend. Got the craving out of the way, but I could have used my tools to overcome the cravings. That's what I will do starting right now. It's gonna be a good sober weekend with my daughter! That's what I have to look forward to after work today. 5 more hours on my shift...seems like forever ugh! I want to be with my baby girl! I love her so much! I'm thankful she is in the same building with me at work, but I'm ready to be home and be SOBER! I hope my new recovery books come today so I'll have some reading to do.
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Posting before you drink can often prevent those Day One posts after you drink. But I get the impression you planned to drink. That's going to make sobriety a challenge. I hope you figure out how to leverage the support for your recovery.
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Originally Posted by doggonecarl 
Posting before you drink can often prevent those Day One posts after you drink. But I get the impression you planned to drink. That's going to make sobriety a challenge. I hope you figure out how to leverage the support for your recovery.
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Good job getting back up on that horse, bronzie! Hold your baby tight! What a good mommy! xoxoxo
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Originally Posted by Dee74
It would be easier in situations like that if your house was an alcohol free zone - is that possible for you. Bronzie?
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Thanks guys! Yes, my house is usually an "alcohol free" zone, so it's not always in the house. But my stepdad does drink occasionally and will have alcohol around. But this past time, it was leftover beer that I had bought last week. I should have just poured it out!
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We don't 'slip'.
It's not an 'oopsie'.
We choose to drink. We don't choose it subconsciously. We allow our will to be taken over by habit and addiction and the false promise of the substance we CHOOSE to put in our bodies.
So, you chose to drink.
Now..... it sounds like you have a desire to stay sober. That's good. But desire isn't the same as choice.
What I finally figured out for myself was that all the desire in the world would amount to nothing until I CHOSE sobriety. All my failures to stop drinking? Well those weren't slips. Those were already planned in, lurking in the shadows just beyond the bright and shiny bull**** of my stated desire.
You gotta just choose it. Once and for all. Then support that choice relentlessly with sober action.
It's not an 'oopsie'.
We choose to drink. We don't choose it subconsciously. We allow our will to be taken over by habit and addiction and the false promise of the substance we CHOOSE to put in our bodies.
So, you chose to drink.
Now..... it sounds like you have a desire to stay sober. That's good. But desire isn't the same as choice.
What I finally figured out for myself was that all the desire in the world would amount to nothing until I CHOSE sobriety. All my failures to stop drinking? Well those weren't slips. Those were already planned in, lurking in the shadows just beyond the bright and shiny bull**** of my stated desire.
You gotta just choose it. Once and for all. Then support that choice relentlessly with sober action.
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Originally Posted by FreeOwl
We don't 'slip'.
It's not an 'oopsie'.
We choose to drink. We don't choose it subconsciously. We allow our will to be taken over by habit and addiction and the false promise of the substance we CHOOSE to put in our bodies.
So, you chose to drink.
Now..... it sounds like you have a desire to stay sober. That's good. But desire isn't the same as choice.
What I finally figured out for myself was that all the desire in the world would amount to nothing until I CHOSE sobriety. All my failures to stop drinking? Well those weren't slips. Those were already planned in, lurking in the shadows just beyond the bright and shiny bull**** of my stated desire.
You gotta just choose it. Once and for all. Then support that choice relentlessly with sober action.
It's not an 'oopsie'.
We choose to drink. We don't choose it subconsciously. We allow our will to be taken over by habit and addiction and the false promise of the substance we CHOOSE to put in our bodies.
So, you chose to drink.
Now..... it sounds like you have a desire to stay sober. That's good. But desire isn't the same as choice.
What I finally figured out for myself was that all the desire in the world would amount to nothing until I CHOSE sobriety. All my failures to stop drinking? Well those weren't slips. Those were already planned in, lurking in the shadows just beyond the bright and shiny bull**** of my stated desire.
You gotta just choose it. Once and for all. Then support that choice relentlessly with sober action.
Thank you for the reply. I will note this in my journal. I jot down things that I read here and advice people on here give to me, so it will stick and I will make the right choices going forward.
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