Cjohn31

So I've been doing really well. Been clean for 3 months and 2 days as of today. So I decided to vacuum out my car today. While I was cleaning out from under the driver's seat I found an oxy. Should have sucked it up with the vacuum but didn't. I feel like such a piece of ****. It feels like it will NEVER end. So this is where I'm at right now.

Dee74

Try and not beat yourself up - whats done is done.

You can absolutely get back now to working on your recovery, a little wiser - and making sure next time temptations put in your way you'll have a range of healthy clean options to choose from (like posting here first, thinking about what you should have done this time, or building a real life sober support network) rather than taking another pill

Active addiction can end - as long as we keep making new and different choies

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DontRemember

Happens,buddy! I probably would have done the same,to be honest...Just don't let it spiral. Your posting here shows you want help and that's a step! One minute at a time,my brother!

Cjohn31

Thank you all. I've never wanted something so bad. I just can't understand why I just didn't get rid of it and be done with it. I'm embarrassed to even face people tomorrow.

Dee74

I didn't become an addict overnight - and I didn't stop thinking like one for a while after I quit either.

Rather than thinking of this as some huge failure, maybe it's best to look at it as a reinforcement of your decision to be clean and sober.

If you're faced with temptation again you'll be able to call on this experience and pull a different outcome from it

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PurpleKnight

Draw a line under it and keep moving forward!!

We can't rewrite the past but we can write a new chapter to our future!!