Sassygrace

I've been trying to break this current cycle of binging.

First of all I really don't understand what triggers these binges.

Second, everyone here says see your doctor. I get that no one is a doctor here, and can't prescribes detox program for another.

I called my doctor and was honest. All they offered to do was give me a referral to a psychiatrist to maybe be put on anxiety/depression meds.

I have to stop. And yes I have to do it alone.

I feel caught up in a vicious cycle.

Just wanted to talk to some folks about what I'm going through and maybe feel supported.

If I had a loving family to turn to I probably wouldn't have started drinking to begin with.

Anyway, I drank 10 light beers today. I get to the point where I'm afraid to stop because of withdrawals.

If someone can help I'd appreciate it.

Grymt

Can you make it to a rehab.

Sassygrace

No. Thats why I'm here posting.

I've been. No one treated my anxiety. It was a waste of time. They got me off alcohol and then sent me home to my now ex husband who's a daily drinker with no intention of stopping. He functions drinking wine every night.

Thats actually how I got started. I figured out the calming effect his wine gave me.

I don't even know why I'm posting this because I know no one can help me.

tomsteve

sassygrace, you have quite a few threads of support here. you've been given great suggestions in those threads on how to stop drinking.yet it appears you don't take any of the suggestions given.
what kind of support do you want that hasn't already been given?
what kind of support can we give if you don't get into action?

theres only so much we can do to help you.

tomsteve

"I know no one can help me. "
yes, someone can, but you have to be willing to help yourself,too.

Sassygrace

Wow. I suppose I just wanted someone to talk to.

I won't be posting again.

Grymt

You have to detox and have time off from drinking. During that time make looking at ways to deal with anxiety a priority.

Ghostlight1

I understand.
I binged for no logical reason at all. If the sun was out at 8am, time to drink.
If it was raining, time to drink.
I have six years sober now and was stumped, while actively drinking, what drove me into these binges.
Then I figured it out; I'm an alcoholic and cannot control my drinking.
I had no family or friends I could turn to, either. Until I found AA, that is.
It changed my life, as has coming here.
Here were people who drank like me. Some worse, some not so much. But we all shared the common bond that we could not control our drinking.
I felt at home. I was amazed. These folks were successfully stopping drinking.
Maybe I could, too. I listened and followed some simple instructions.
It took me awhile, and many failed attempts. But I got sober. Just for today for that is all I have. Just don't drink today.

I wish you the best and you are not alone. I lived like I did drinking for twenty years. I was a bad drunk.
But there is hope. Seek out help, as you are here, and never give up.

D122y

Sassy,

You can talk to us here.

I was a binge drinker.

I couldn't understand how once I started I could not stop.

It is the same now with sugary items. Candy, cookies, cakes etc.

I end up overdosing on sweets if I have just one.

If you want to quit, that is step 1. It is more than half the battle...imo.

Then you have to be ready for the detox, suffering, and finally uncomfortable feelings.

It sucked for many months for me. I didn't even find SR until I was 80 days clean.

I thought I was going mad, I wanted to drink so badly.

But, the folks here promised me it gets better...they did not lie.

Now...i still crave, but I am a non drinker. I will never ever drink again.

Saying that is like driving nails into the heart of the addiction.

Booze is poison. Stay clean.

Keep trying. Eat sweets when you crave alcohol. Stay hydrated.

When you start to feel good and the crave kicks in...that is when the real battle begins.

Thanks.

2muchpain

Not posting anymore is only hurting yourself. Getting support is very important and I hope you change your mind, but IMO all the outside support in the world will do little good if we don't look inside ourselves and find our inner strength and be willing to be open to suggestions. Getting and staying sober is an inside job with outside support. John

Hawkeye13

It is hard to stop, but it is do-able with support, inside and out.

I think you can do it Sassy, and I think you deserve a happier healthier life.
I hope you don't choose to leave.
Lots of us have been right where you are and we understand

Delilah1

Hi Sassy,

Please don't stop posting, the whole point of the Newcomers is to support people struggling to stop drinking.

People tell you to see your doctor because withdrawal can be dangerous, and sometimes it is better to do that under the supervision of a doctor.

Is there a reason you didn't see the psychiatrist? I also deal with anxiety, and I know I used to think wine helped me to be less stressed/anxious, however, my anxiety only increased the next morning. I have one year and one month sober, and my anxiety is much less than it had been. I do have medication that I take at night because my mind doesn't shut off. I also have really worked on mindfulness to stay focused in the present.

You can do this.

Forward12

I would start with if you have anxiety issues, take the referral and start seeing a therapist. In the meantime, start hitting AA meetings to help with keeping yourself sober. Also living with another alcoholic i'm sure isn't helping. Is there any way you can move out?
I know we all wish we could just snap out of it, but it's not that easy. It does take some hard work.

Dee74

Have you thought about AA or some other meeting based recovery groups, Sassygrace?

D

Steely

Yes, in the beginning AA can be really good if for no other reason than having people around you having a common goal.

It's not set in stone that you go to AA forever, but in the beginning it can be very comforting with lots of support if you find the right meetings.

ReadyAtLast

You're right in that only you can stop but you're not alone in the sense there is a great deal of support out there and here on SR.

for me, it doesn't really matter what makes me drink or what triggers me. I just know I can't drink and can't pick up. I try and put my energies into my recovery rather than trying to find answer a question that really has no answer-why can't I drink 'normally'?

whatcouldbe

I have been here. I felt this exact way. In the past attempts i would post and someone would reply "harshly" or "aggressively". I hated when things i had said in the past were "thrown at me". Not until now do i realize i was more frustrated with my own "broken record" and i really thought there was a quick fix that this group had but wasnt sharing. Or better yet, they tell me that i dont have a problem in their eyes and to go have one for them! Truth is, when i was feeling really low, i turned everything around me negative. This time i tried something differant and it has clicked. Give yourself this chance and i am sure you wont regret it. I had a rough start, but i kept coming back for more. You get stronger everyday. Just dont give up when you feel you arent being heard. Keep expressing yourself and some day soon something will click for you too.