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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Upper Left USA
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Checking in.
Will feel quite good changing the wall calendar from 16 to 17 for many reasons. Who knows what the new year shall bring, but for a while there may be the innocent hope of something grand.
For me, I aim for a completely sober 2017. For what I can control in this crazy- gone world, sobriety will be of upmost importance. I'm ending the year sober, and with more sober days over 2016 than drinking days which is a step in the right direction. Had 6 months strung together at one point but that was lost for reasons that haven't justified the slide back into the crappy bottles. That was October and that has followed a mix of drinking and quitting.
My grand plan was to quit after a grand depart over Christmas. Always giving myself one more party. Strangely enough I ended my drinking a day early since I did such a number on myself. Even with a day filled with drinking on the calendar, I quit because I had enough. Physically ill and emotionally beat, I decided to call it with full bottles at the ready.
So Just getting through these first few days and making my plans for the upcoming year. Read through many posts here, on and off all year. Never much of a poster. Looking back at my own posts, it's sad to see that I could post the same thing today that I wrote december 2014. Two years. two calendars. Haven't made any progress. Doesn't do me too well getting down. Time to get on...
thanks for all the support here. it isn't easy. looking at two days and building on and on.
Will feel quite good changing the wall calendar from 16 to 17 for many reasons. Who knows what the new year shall bring, but for a while there may be the innocent hope of something grand.
For me, I aim for a completely sober 2017. For what I can control in this crazy- gone world, sobriety will be of upmost importance. I'm ending the year sober, and with more sober days over 2016 than drinking days which is a step in the right direction. Had 6 months strung together at one point but that was lost for reasons that haven't justified the slide back into the crappy bottles. That was October and that has followed a mix of drinking and quitting.
My grand plan was to quit after a grand depart over Christmas. Always giving myself one more party. Strangely enough I ended my drinking a day early since I did such a number on myself. Even with a day filled with drinking on the calendar, I quit because I had enough. Physically ill and emotionally beat, I decided to call it with full bottles at the ready.
So Just getting through these first few days and making my plans for the upcoming year. Read through many posts here, on and off all year. Never much of a poster. Looking back at my own posts, it's sad to see that I could post the same thing today that I wrote december 2014. Two years. two calendars. Haven't made any progress. Doesn't do me too well getting down. Time to get on...
thanks for all the support here. it isn't easy. looking at two days and building on and on.
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Join Date: Jan 2016
Posts: 1,462
Bigshoe,
I stopped and started a ton of times. I learned a little each time. I've found posting here everyday if I can, even it's to say hi to someone new or congratulate someone on a sobriety milestone really helps. I think it reinforces my sobriety everyday. I know you can do it. You need to stick to your plan and be strong. Wishing you the best my friend.
I stopped and started a ton of times. I learned a little each time. I've found posting here everyday if I can, even it's to say hi to someone new or congratulate someone on a sobriety milestone really helps. I think it reinforces my sobriety everyday. I know you can do it. You need to stick to your plan and be strong. Wishing you the best my friend.
Sobriety is Traditional
Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Orcas Island, Washington
Posts: 9,067
Welcome back, Bigshoe!
Here's a couple good threads to join:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-192-a.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-2-a-8.html
Read around and post often!
Here's a couple good threads to join:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-192-a.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-2-a-8.html
Read around and post often!
Friendly Folk
Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Powers Lake, Wisconsin
Posts: 21,718
One day at a time BigShoe. It does get easier. Somehow we do learn. Before another relapse something in our brains recalls that if you do drink again it will be the same old path that we have taken again and again and again. So in your first days of sobriety take a good look around at the old path you have taken. Say 'good-bye" and 'no more'. And begin anew.
When tempted to drink again I picture in my mind that old path...the way it would distroy me and what I have worked for. I actually pretend that I am there. Sick, lost, feeling disappointed in myself, angry at my weakness...like a bad dream. Then return to my new path grateful I have chosen to remain on the sober path. And I keep on, keepin' on!!
We are all happy you are back! Keep posting! ♡CR
When tempted to drink again I picture in my mind that old path...the way it would distroy me and what I have worked for. I actually pretend that I am there. Sick, lost, feeling disappointed in myself, angry at my weakness...like a bad dream. Then return to my new path grateful I have chosen to remain on the sober path. And I keep on, keepin' on!!
We are all happy you are back! Keep posting! ♡CR
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
Posts: 13,044
Glad you are here and posting Bigshoe. I will have one year on January 1st, but I joined back in 2012. It took me a while to stop attempting moderation. 2016 will be my first year completely sober in a very long time, and posting and reading here daily helped that to happen. I know you will be able to say the same atear from now, and I'm looking forward to reading about your journey along the way!
You've got this!
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You've got this!
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Originally Posted by BigShoe 
Looking back at my own posts, it's sad to see that I could post the same thing today that I wrote december 2014. Two years. two calendars. Haven't made any progress.
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Originally Posted by BigShoe
Checking in.
Will feel quite good changing the wall calendar from 16 to 17 for many reasons. Who knows what the new year shall bring, but for a while there may be the innocent hope of something grand.
For me, I aim for a completely sober 2017. For what I can control in this crazy- gone world, sobriety will be of upmost importance. I'm ending the year sober, and with more sober days over 2016 than drinking days which is a step in the right direction. Had 6 months strung together at one point but that was lost for reasons that haven't justified the slide back into the crappy bottles. That was October and that has followed a mix of drinking and quitting.
My grand plan was to quit after a grand depart over Christmas. Always giving myself one more party. Strangely enough I ended my drinking a day early since I did such a number on myself. Even with a day filled with drinking on the calendar, I quit because I had enough. Physically ill and emotionally beat, I decided to call it with full bottles at the ready.
So Just getting through these first few days and making my plans for the upcoming year. Read through many posts here, on and off all year. Never much of a poster. Looking back at my own posts, it's sad to see that I could post the same thing today that I wrote december 2014. Two years. two calendars. Haven't made any progress. Doesn't do me too well getting down. Time to get on...
thanks for all the support here. it isn't easy. looking at two days and building on and on.
Will feel quite good changing the wall calendar from 16 to 17 for many reasons. Who knows what the new year shall bring, but for a while there may be the innocent hope of something grand.
For me, I aim for a completely sober 2017. For what I can control in this crazy- gone world, sobriety will be of upmost importance. I'm ending the year sober, and with more sober days over 2016 than drinking days which is a step in the right direction. Had 6 months strung together at one point but that was lost for reasons that haven't justified the slide back into the crappy bottles. That was October and that has followed a mix of drinking and quitting.
My grand plan was to quit after a grand depart over Christmas. Always giving myself one more party. Strangely enough I ended my drinking a day early since I did such a number on myself. Even with a day filled with drinking on the calendar, I quit because I had enough. Physically ill and emotionally beat, I decided to call it with full bottles at the ready.
So Just getting through these first few days and making my plans for the upcoming year. Read through many posts here, on and off all year. Never much of a poster. Looking back at my own posts, it's sad to see that I could post the same thing today that I wrote december 2014. Two years. two calendars. Haven't made any progress. Doesn't do me too well getting down. Time to get on...
thanks for all the support here. it isn't easy. looking at two days and building on and on.
OX
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Upper Left USA
Posts: 630
Grateful for all the kindness. This really is a special place.
I do go back and forth in my mind on why I need to come here or use any program at all. I would love to just not drink and move on. But alcohol is bigger and trickier than it seems. And looking at the numbers, I'm obviously not the only one feeling down or swindled. Not alone in letting time slide by sliding down the bottle. I will take today and build confidence for tomorrow
I do go back and forth in my mind on why I need to come here or use any program at all. I would love to just not drink and move on. But alcohol is bigger and trickier than it seems. And looking at the numbers, I'm obviously not the only one feeling down or swindled. Not alone in letting time slide by sliding down the bottle. I will take today and build confidence for tomorrow
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