Lookingforchange

Hi all,
My sisters doing amazing she's been sober for 14 months!
I've blown it and been drinking again for 2 weeks. Enoughs enough I feel like a slave and don't want to go back to living like this. I thought after a while teetotal I could control it-I def can't it controls me. Drinking is completely off the table for good!

Steely

That's great to hear Lookingforchange. It's a learning curve, and all of us hope and think that with a little ha abstinence we can return to drink rationally.

I used to think that as soon as I had worked out my psychological and emotional stuff I would be able to drink socially. I can't, and I have tried many, many times. My psychological and emotional stuff returned as soon as I returned to drinking.

You have moved further along the curve and have reached a really important understanding. That is, that you can't drink in moderation, and never in my wildest dreams did I think I would utter those words. I worked hard on moderation. Too hard, wasted good sober time.

Seemed so simple, just stop at 2-3 but it doesn't work that way, as soon as I have the 2-3 in me its all over bar the counting.

I've also come to understand that 2-3 is not reallywhat I want. I want to get drunk. No half measures. I can't see the point in having 2 drinks. Lemon, lime and soda much tastier, and feel good about myself next day.

You have come to a really good and necessary point in your recovery Lookingforchange. Congratulations, as it's not easy to reach. Sober is good even when it's raining.

Your username says it all. Keep posting.

Lookingforchange

Thanks for you support, I decided not to give up hope and have a pity party.
Seeing my counsellor in a week for accountability. Tee total is the way forward.

OldTomato

It's great to hear that you've been able to learn from this experience and carry on achieving sobriety. Keep us updated, you're doing great!

Soberwolf

Don't beat yourself up but do print out this post keep it in your wallet and anytime you get cravings in the future read this

You can do this

Hawkeye13

Yep, once you accept you can't drink at all, it actually gets
easier and better. You can do it!

Mountainmanbob

We had to make a firm decision to never drink again.
Sounds like you have finally done that?
Mountainmanbob

sva777

It's hard to accept at first but once you do it does get easier.

Delilah1

Welcome back! I learned the same lesson as you the hard way several times. I am six months (and two days) sober today and SR has been my biggest support. You can do this!

Flawed

EXCELLENT idea! I wrote down how I felt after my last drunk and keep that around for review as well. Good for you on getting back up and trying again!

thomas11

You keep trying and sound determined, that's important. It is sometimes said quitting is easy, staying quit is the hard part. I agree with that premise.

Lookingforchange

Thanks all. I've made a note on my phone of all the wasted time and things I've regretted. I've put a picture on my screensaver reminding me to stay sober. X