Kaily

I managed a few days sober this week and I felt very pleased with myself being as I am a daily drinker plus better in myself as well, then one day I got over tired so ended up resting in the afternoon which left me restless early evening and heading out for drink..then another day sober reflecting that I hadn't enjoyed the previous evening. Then along comes the weekend, met a friend for a dog walk, asked her to help me hang a mirror that afternoon, she said yes but let me down and that was enough to send me out for drink as had been alone all day and wanted company, same thing today, not spoken to anyone except polite good mornings at the park with my dogs.
I feel like I am at the bottom of a very slippery slope making small moves up but the sliding back to the start again!

biminiblue

Keep doing the next right thing.

That resentment you felt because someone didn't act the way you wanted them to needs to be addressed. Allowing others to affect my sobriety will always end up with me drinking. I can't control what other people do or don't do, and no one has to make sure I'm not lonely. How about building a life for yourself by volunteering or take up a hobby in something that you like.

Someone is always here, so you don't have to be lonely any more

Don't pick up a drink no matter what happens. Make that an unbreakable rule.

JD

Hi Kaily. If you really want to do this you have to get your head around never drinking again. You can get there one day at a time. But moderation doesn't work well for us. Heck, it doesn't work at all. You can slow your drinking for a short period of time but soon you'll be right back to where you were. So start by making a plan on how you'll stay sober every day.

damascus1986

Have you tried any meeting places? cant hurt.

Kaily

I love the forum and all its members but I still feel very alone.. I am
alone and that is very difficult as only someone in the same position would truly understand..

JD

Many of us are alone in many different ways. But drinking isn't going to make that any better. In fact it makes it worse. Now we're not only alone but isolating without hope of getting out of that loneliness. Sobriety is more than just stopping drinking. It takes many changes to ones life. And that's very hard work but rewarding at the end.

damascus1986

thats why i do both meetings and the forum helps sometimes to have someone give you a hug or someone to go eat with and recover with

RushTogether

Have you been to an AA meeting in your area?

I always have a hard time feeling alone there.

Soberwolf

Have you thought of joining a zumba class or something to go with meetings ?