Hello All - Time to Stop
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Hello All - Time to Stop
Hello All
Well i think i've hit that point everyone here must get to where enough is enough. I've been what i think they call a high functioning alcoholic for about 10 years now, drinking every day and often by myself. I travel away a lot for work and the drink is 'free' with expenses and at hotel / airport lounges so i drink way more than is healthy but convince myself it's ok. I've then continued to drink at home on the weekends, often excessively and often when my wife and kids are out or cant see. I dont even get drunk now, just drink for no reason, to dull my senses. Every day by 5pm i think about when and where and how much and I end up having to have paracetomol to sort out a sore head both before i go to bed and when i wake up
Ive always just assumed its normal for working middle class guys to drink heavily (a lot of my peers do) bit ive got to the point where im really tired, feel like crap, have put on way too much weight, wake up early most nights and worse have developed a nasty temper, become really judgemental and developed a terrible short term memory often mixing up words when sober
So im starting again, today is day 2, im away on work and am about to go to for a run outside instead of the hotel bar
I dont want my young kids to grow up with their dad like this but although ive tried to give up before i've always failed - i've never done it in a group or a forum though and reading some of the posts on here i think it will really help to have the support not to cave in
tks for reading ...
Well i think i've hit that point everyone here must get to where enough is enough. I've been what i think they call a high functioning alcoholic for about 10 years now, drinking every day and often by myself. I travel away a lot for work and the drink is 'free' with expenses and at hotel / airport lounges so i drink way more than is healthy but convince myself it's ok. I've then continued to drink at home on the weekends, often excessively and often when my wife and kids are out or cant see. I dont even get drunk now, just drink for no reason, to dull my senses. Every day by 5pm i think about when and where and how much and I end up having to have paracetomol to sort out a sore head both before i go to bed and when i wake up
Ive always just assumed its normal for working middle class guys to drink heavily (a lot of my peers do) bit ive got to the point where im really tired, feel like crap, have put on way too much weight, wake up early most nights and worse have developed a nasty temper, become really judgemental and developed a terrible short term memory often mixing up words when sober
So im starting again, today is day 2, im away on work and am about to go to for a run outside instead of the hotel bar
I dont want my young kids to grow up with their dad like this but although ive tried to give up before i've always failed - i've never done it in a group or a forum though and reading some of the posts on here i think it will really help to have the support not to cave in
tks for reading ...
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Me too!
Hi there
I have joined today I need this forum I am on day one and this time I am serious. That's great going for a run this will help you sleep too. I have read the books done the journal I am a functioning alcoholic I hide it very well. I can no longer live like this I feel I'll all the time no focus moody etc.. Enough a enough!
I have joined today I need this forum I am on day one and this time I am serious. That's great going for a run this will help you sleep too. I have read the books done the journal I am a functioning alcoholic I hide it very well. I can no longer live like this I feel I'll all the time no focus moody etc.. Enough a enough!
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Welcome MLT. You'll find a ton of support here at SR. One of the main reasons I quit was also for my kids. I felt my kids shouldn't be punished for having a weak father who chooses to drink every day. I woke up one day after 21 years of heavy drinking and knew my tomorrows were absolutely running out quickly at the rate I was going.
Stick close to SR and congratulations on day 2!
Stick close to SR and congratulations on day 2!
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Welcome to SR,MLT.
I did the same thing for a while. Spent a lot of time living out of a suit case and my drinking began to skyrocket. It's when I moved from beer to drinking hard stuff.
You know, that whole "high functioning" thing will only last so long. And besides, you will see how much more you will function without alcohol in your life anymore.
I'm glad you decided to stop now. It's really no life to live and it's true, if you continue you'll miss a lot of your kids lives. Been there done that unfortunately.
You can do it.
I did the same thing for a while. Spent a lot of time living out of a suit case and my drinking began to skyrocket. It's when I moved from beer to drinking hard stuff.
You know, that whole "high functioning" thing will only last so long. And besides, you will see how much more you will function without alcohol in your life anymore.
I'm glad you decided to stop now. It's really no life to live and it's true, if you continue you'll miss a lot of your kids lives. Been there done that unfortunately.
You can do it.
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Tks all
And thanks Jenn
Looks like we're kind of starting together so let's keep in touch
Went for the run, (more of a plod really) am seriously out of shape and it was a struggle but enjoyed it! Gave me 20 mins to think and almost felt the alcohol sweating out of me - going to set a challenge to myself to do a 10k in 45 minutes - focus on that and go training in the evenings when the cravings hit
Again tks for the welcome and I'll be sure to check in again soon as in sure I'll have weak days and questions !
Looks like we're kind of starting together so let's keep in touch
Went for the run, (more of a plod really) am seriously out of shape and it was a struggle but enjoyed it! Gave me 20 mins to think and almost felt the alcohol sweating out of me - going to set a challenge to myself to do a 10k in 45 minutes - focus on that and go training in the evenings when the cravings hit
Again tks for the welcome and I'll be sure to check in again soon as in sure I'll have weak days and questions !
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Welcome and you sound a lot like me. Business trips, dinners etc and I also was having problems getting drunk but always wanted more and always felt like poop. I'm about 10 months in and feeling alot better mentally and physically. Stay here and get some friends.
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Hi MLT - I'm so glad you joined us. We have to be ready to change our lives, and it sounds like you're motivated. 
It helps to be here with those who understand and care.
Congrats on your Day 2. You can do it!
It helps to be here with those who understand and care.Congrats on your Day 2. You can do it!
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Welcome to SR, MLT. You've come to a great place for support, encouragement and understanding.
Like Anna, I found quitting so much easier than moderation (at which I failed every single time).
Again, welcome.
Like Anna, I found quitting so much easier than moderation (at which I failed every single time).
Again, welcome.
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Good job choosing to run instead of go to the bar and drink!!
I went trail running in my neck of the woods yesterday and it was fantastic! Love the fresh autumn air, the smell of the woods..the views...wanted to stay out longer, but had to get home and think about fixing dinner!
I went trail running in my neck of the woods yesterday and it was fantastic! Love the fresh autumn air, the smell of the woods..the views...wanted to stay out longer, but had to get home and think about fixing dinner!
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