Please tell me it's gonna be alright
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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Hi aistar I can guarantee that as long as you don;t listen to that AV, and keep making good recovery decisions you'll be ok 
Everyone has ups and downs - but we get through them
Feel free to check out the marijuana forum too - there's a lot of stories down there that will make you think twice about weed.
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You can do this - stay strong
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Everyone has ups and downs - but we get through them
Feel free to check out the marijuana forum too - there's a lot of stories down there that will make you think twice about weed.
NEW! Marijuana Addiction - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
You can do this - stay strong
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: USA
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It gets better each and every day I'm sober. Ending day 136 now.
And being sober for me includes not smoking weed or taking any other non-prescribed drugs for the express purpose of getting high or calm or mellow or forgetting my life. You can do this! Post in here once a minute if you have to. We're here for you!
And being sober for me includes not smoking weed or taking any other non-prescribed drugs for the express purpose of getting high or calm or mellow or forgetting my life. You can do this! Post in here once a minute if you have to. We're here for you!
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Posts: 5,937
I know it's hard sometimes, aistar. Try to ride it out and stay the course. Even after three years of sobriety I still fantasize about drinking occasionally- but when I do I "play the tape" forward to the ending. It's simply not worth throwing away the peace I've found for that momentary bliss of alcoholic oblivion. The bottle isn't a stress reliever it's a hiding place. Weed is the same.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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It's gonna be all right.
Also, it's OK to feel that way, and to let others know how you're feeling.
I remember those feelings well.... and the first time I tried to embrace sobriety, I tried it without letting go of weed. It worked for a while.... but eventually (I made it 5 months) I was right back at it, even moreso.
I found that other drugs were just helping me stay in the mindset, in the trap, in the lack of change and the lack of growth that would support my actual sobriety.
This time around, I'm almost two years into it and have left marijuana along with alcohol and other drugs behind. In doing so, and making changes and getting support to learn new ways of living and learning to deal with my feelings and emotions regularly in healthy ways - I've found freedom and a lot more happiness than booze or buds ever brought.
Sure, there were good times.... sure, I grieved the loss of those good times..... but also I have gained the ability to have and to experience good times fully, deeply and with presence. I have gained the ability to have a truly meaningful experience of life and a connection to it that I didn't have anymore while I was living in a haze of alcohol or potsmoke. Maybe I never really had it at all....
Hang in there... ride out the feelings but dont' give into them or get trapped in them. It gets better.
Also, it's OK to feel that way, and to let others know how you're feeling.
I remember those feelings well.... and the first time I tried to embrace sobriety, I tried it without letting go of weed. It worked for a while.... but eventually (I made it 5 months) I was right back at it, even moreso.
I found that other drugs were just helping me stay in the mindset, in the trap, in the lack of change and the lack of growth that would support my actual sobriety.
This time around, I'm almost two years into it and have left marijuana along with alcohol and other drugs behind. In doing so, and making changes and getting support to learn new ways of living and learning to deal with my feelings and emotions regularly in healthy ways - I've found freedom and a lot more happiness than booze or buds ever brought.
Sure, there were good times.... sure, I grieved the loss of those good times..... but also I have gained the ability to have and to experience good times fully, deeply and with presence. I have gained the ability to have a truly meaningful experience of life and a connection to it that I didn't have anymore while I was living in a haze of alcohol or potsmoke. Maybe I never really had it at all....
Hang in there... ride out the feelings but dont' give into them or get trapped in them. It gets better.
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