blueberry2015

Had the day from hell yesterday, felt very low and weapy full of remorse and regret of just about everything I had done to others and myself during my drinking days. The AV was screaming at me have a drink and it will take all that away..... I chose a hot bath and some breathing exercises instead, and here I am 22 days sober.... I was tested yesterday, normally I would have a dimazipan but ive none left.... I feel proud of myself that I managed to pull myself through. Feeling a LOT better this morning it certaintly beats a hangover and a regret of relapsing thats for sure. Im hanging on in there.

mystified

You whooped that av's ass!

MythOfSisyphus

Keep it up, Blueberry!

Dee74

I'm glad you feel better today

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blueberry2015

Thank you. Yesterday was a challenging one I have to say! But Im still here kicking butt...i feel quite empowered today.

TroyW

Great to hear blueberry. Keep it up!

Soberwolf

Congrats Blueberry

PurpleKnight

Always a weird thought that one . . . "alcohol caused chaos, I'm feeling regret over that chaos, the answer is therefore more alcohol"!!

But that's how mad addiction can be, great job on pushing through Blueberry!!

simplex

Great job! One of the things that helps me the most is to just slow down and breathe with a count. It's such a small thing but sometimes it can totally flip the day around.

newpage119

Good going Blueberry! The more you beat the AV the easier it gets!

sobriiestote

Well done, you're inspiring me it can be done!

Tell me - what are you doing evenings to replace that drinking time???

2muchpain

Well done getting through that tough day. I think getting through those tough days sober helps to strengthen my determination to not drink. Without them, I wouldn't be growing. John

Jema33

Well done!!

Alynn

That's great blueberry! It can be an emotional roller coaster for sure! Keep pushing through!

blueberry2015

I drink a sparkling juice drink, go to AA or watch a film, have a bath, play the sims lol, listen to music, call a friend etc etc tbh its not too different from what I used to do accept I enjoy it more and NOW I can actually watch a film without one skinty eye, (trying to regain my focus on the tv lol) I understand the plot and I don't pass out in a drunken stupor before the end!! Do anything you want to do to distract yourself from any niggling cravings just dont drink!!! Breathing Exercise really helped last night as I was on edge as I breathed in I told my self I was breathing fresh and pure air as I breathed out I told myself I was breathing out the toxins and my addiction. I imagined my body being filled with clean and pure energy with each in breath which would destroy any negative or toxic energy leaving my outbreath.... first time I ever did that but..... it really really helped.

blueberry2015

Yup sure is crazy!!!!

blueberry2015

Thank you for this John x x x

blueberry2015

Thanks everyone for your encouragment and positivity ooooh look its now Day 23 here in the UK.... yay!!!