really struggling
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
really struggling
struggling right now
me and my husband been fighting about the fact i want to have drugs and drink av not picked up or taken anything
am wanting to self medicate
PTSD and other **** to do with my past
i cant face it
am scared all the time
i hide it from everyone including my husband
I have an appointment with my Therapist but its not until September
September is when we visit family it will be after that
Family that will have alcohol in the house
i need to try and cope with that and the fact ill have no AA meeting to go to as we dont know the area that well
i will be on line for most of the time we are there so ill have here to come to.
i am keeping myself busy i cant make it to an AA meeting tonight as its late here am going to go to one tomorrow night
Av had a shower have new pjs ( there purple ) and my husband is making me a strong mug of decaff coffee ( well as strong as decaff can go ) ...dont think ill sleep much tonight go someone here at 9 am to fix the handle on the kitchen door he should be here between 9 am - 2pm ... No kids here this weekend i have my LGBT group on and AA meeting on Saturday
unsure if ill make it to my next AA meeting at this rate
Also feel like cutting ... got to keep myself busy might try and read some of the big book .
does anyone know of any good books that would help me
me and my husband been fighting about the fact i want to have drugs and drink av not picked up or taken anything
am wanting to self medicate
PTSD and other **** to do with my past
i cant face it
am scared all the time
i hide it from everyone including my husband
I have an appointment with my Therapist but its not until September
September is when we visit family it will be after that
Family that will have alcohol in the house
i need to try and cope with that and the fact ill have no AA meeting to go to as we dont know the area that well
i will be on line for most of the time we are there so ill have here to come to.
i am keeping myself busy i cant make it to an AA meeting tonight as its late here am going to go to one tomorrow night
Av had a shower have new pjs ( there purple ) and my husband is making me a strong mug of decaff coffee ( well as strong as decaff can go ) ...dont think ill sleep much tonight go someone here at 9 am to fix the handle on the kitchen door he should be here between 9 am - 2pm ... No kids here this weekend i have my LGBT group on and AA meeting on Saturday
unsure if ill make it to my next AA meeting at this rate
Also feel like cutting ... got to keep myself busy might try and read some of the big book .
does anyone know of any good books that would help me
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
Last time i was at the LGBT group i told them about going to AA and they said they can give me a one off appointment with one of the LGBT Therapist i left my number with them but i havent heard anything back yet it was only on monday that i told the worker about the AA
i have no other mental health professionals apart from my Psych but i dont see him for another few months ...i have my medication that meant to a sedate me but its **** .
Sorry really not coping
i have no other mental health professionals apart from my Psych but i dont see him for another few months ...i have my medication that meant to a sedate me but its **** .
Sorry really not coping
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Hi, Aum; you mentioned AA ; do you have a sponsor? Could you call her to talk about how you are feeling.
Waiting until September to seek advice, care or counseling seems like a very long time to wait when you appear to be in a crisis. What about the ER or it's Scottish equivalent (A&E?)
Someone is always here, Aum; post as often as you need or want.
Waiting until September to seek advice, care or counseling seems like a very long time to wait when you appear to be in a crisis. What about the ER or it's Scottish equivalent (A&E?)
Someone is always here, Aum; post as often as you need or want.
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
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No i dont have a sponsor, i have some phone numbers of people
i could call them
Going to A and E would make things worse there are always drunks there shouting or fighting there , even thought the police is there all the time
there are people with injures witch can trigger me and upset me
id be worse off there .
Today am feeling calmer
This morning am seeing things like dolphins and Hindu Gods etc
its kinda nice not to see bad things for a little while
i could call them
Going to A and E would make things worse there are always drunks there shouting or fighting there , even thought the police is there all the time
there are people with injures witch can trigger me and upset me
id be worse off there .
Today am feeling calmer
This morning am seeing things like dolphins and Hindu Gods etc
its kinda nice not to see bad things for a little while
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: C.C. Ma.
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Hi.
"No i dont have a sponsor, i have some phone numbers of people
i could call them."
Part of the way AA works is people helping people. If people don’t know of your situation they can’t help and the spiral continues. I suggest using those numbers even if you don’t want to for part of your support. This is part of the changes we need to do to maintain a sober day.
BE WELL
"No i dont have a sponsor, i have some phone numbers of people
i could call them."
Part of the way AA works is people helping people. If people don’t know of your situation they can’t help and the spiral continues. I suggest using those numbers even if you don’t want to for part of your support. This is part of the changes we need to do to maintain a sober day.
BE WELL
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