So here I am....
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So here I am....
Hi everyone, I'm Jonny and to everyone except those very few who know me well enough I'm a 34 year old high flying management professional. I have a wife whose beauty is only matched by the two wonderful children we have together.
Neighbours, work colleagues, even family members look at me, my life and I'm sure they see a stand up citizen, a doting husband and father, a strong man.
Obviously the fact that I'm here, making this post suggests otherwise.
It's taken me 15 years to come to terms with the fact that I'm an alcoholic. It wasn't always as bad as it is now. Hiding drinks from my suspicious wife... Being unable to stop myself from getting black-out drunk on a regular basis.
On Sunday morning my 6 year old daughter found me unconscious on the bathroom floor in a pool of my own urine.
My resolve now feels strong. I am going to change. Naive as it may sound I intend not to drink again, ever. T-total will be the biggest challenge of my life but with my family supporting me it's not impossible.
I am posting this in the hope that sharing will help me to verbalise the way that I feel as I go through this process.
Thanks for reading.
Jonny
Neighbours, work colleagues, even family members look at me, my life and I'm sure they see a stand up citizen, a doting husband and father, a strong man.
Obviously the fact that I'm here, making this post suggests otherwise.
It's taken me 15 years to come to terms with the fact that I'm an alcoholic. It wasn't always as bad as it is now. Hiding drinks from my suspicious wife... Being unable to stop myself from getting black-out drunk on a regular basis.
On Sunday morning my 6 year old daughter found me unconscious on the bathroom floor in a pool of my own urine.
My resolve now feels strong. I am going to change. Naive as it may sound I intend not to drink again, ever. T-total will be the biggest challenge of my life but with my family supporting me it's not impossible.
I am posting this in the hope that sharing will help me to verbalise the way that I feel as I go through this process.
Thanks for reading.
Jonny
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Welcome to Sober Recovery.
I don't think it's naïve to commit to lifelong sobriety.
It may be naïve to think that intent alone will carry you.
Good luck.
Originally Posted by ANewWay 
Naive as it may sound I intend not to drink again, ever. T-total will be the biggest challenge of my life but with my family supporting me it's not impossible.
It may be naïve to think that intent alone will carry you.
Good luck.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
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Welcome to SR, Johnny. You will find a lot of support here.
You don't have to feel the way I can guess you felt on Sunday morning ever again. I am closing in on 3 months without picking up a drink, and it is the best choice I ever made for myself and my family.
You don't have to feel the way I can guess you felt on Sunday morning ever again. I am closing in on 3 months without picking up a drink, and it is the best choice I ever made for myself and my family.
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Welcome to the forums Aneway.
I wish you the best of luck on your journey of recovery. It's going to be a long journey, but it's good that you have made the first step by realise you have a problem.
Also from past experiences, I would suggest not to rely to heavily on your family for support. Other support groups such as A.A can really help, and of course the community here is a safe and friendly place that you can come to 24/7. I wish I had found it a lot sooner.
I wish you the best of luck on your journey of recovery. It's going to be a long journey, but it's good that you have made the first step by realise you have a problem.
Also from past experiences, I would suggest not to rely to heavily on your family for support. Other support groups such as A.A can really help, and of course the community here is a safe and friendly place that you can come to 24/7. I wish I had found it a lot sooner.
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Welcome to SR Jonny. There is a tonne of support here for you to lean on.
As Carl said, it might be worth coming up with a plan. Having tried many, many times, resolve alone only lasts so long.
As Carl said, it might be worth coming up with a plan. Having tried many, many times, resolve alone only lasts so long.
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Welcome Jonny - Good username by the way . You will find that here "ANewWay" to live life Sober & happier 
Congrats on taking the first step , before it gets any worse for you & your family . I'm don't know what kind of plan you maybe thinking of , but I'm sure you will get a lot of pointers here . Lots of info . & great people to help in your journey .
Congrats on taking the first step , before it gets any worse for you & your family . I'm don't know what kind of plan you maybe thinking of , but I'm sure you will get a lot of pointers here . Lots of info . & great people to help in your journey .
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Jonny,
welcome.
if you go to the link i posted, you'll see that it's exactly about 'i will never drink again and i will never change my mind".
may sound naive to some, but not to all.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ined-long.html
welcome.
if you go to the link i posted, you'll see that it's exactly about 'i will never drink again and i will never change my mind".
may sound naive to some, but not to all.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ined-long.html
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Thanks all for the kind responses.
I'm fully aware that I can't give my family back the things that my behaviour has deprived them of so far.
I am committed completely however to being the husband and father they deserve going forwards.
I'll update on my progress.
I'm fully aware that I can't give my family back the things that my behaviour has deprived them of so far.
I am committed completely however to being the husband and father they deserve going forwards.
I'll update on my progress.
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Welcome Jonny.
I described myself very similarly in June when I joined this site. I launched into this with complete optimism and enthusiasm and have felt massively better in a short time. I have also slipped twice so I caution you to maintain vigilance!
Despite the slips, I have had a better 6 weeks this summer than any other time in the past 15-20 years.
It is going to be challenging but it is completely worth it.
I look forward to watching you progress!
Jonathan
I described myself very similarly in June when I joined this site. I launched into this with complete optimism and enthusiasm and have felt massively better in a short time. I have also slipped twice so I caution you to maintain vigilance!
Despite the slips, I have had a better 6 weeks this summer than any other time in the past 15-20 years.
It is going to be challenging but it is completely worth it.
I look forward to watching you progress!
Jonathan
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