TerpGal

I normally post on f&f but I "belong" here, too. I have severe depression. Major depression, bipolar depression? I've heard both but one things for sure it SUCKS. And I am pretty much out of options for meds. Des are starting to skirt around the ECT issue. That scare the ever.login snot out of me. I know it's effective for 80% of people but the memory loss........It's too terrifying to think about.

Anyone ever have this done or know someone who has? Experiences?

Soberwolf

I think talking to a Dr would really help TerpGirl

happybeingme

Terp I am sorry you are going through this. I have struggled with major depression myself. It had a lot to do with why I became alcoholic. I take an SNRI and use CBT. It has been a huge help. While my depression isn't completely gone the episodes are much less frequent and severe.

Are you seeing a therapist? Havre you had your thyroid checked? I have heard that ECT can be really a miracle. The actress/author Carrie Fisher had it done. She said while she has had some memory loss some came back over time.

TerpGal

yeap the doc is the one telling me maybe its time to consider it. I have done almost every med under the sun and therapy too.

The memory loss SO scares me. I am a psych nurse, the last place I worked did ECT. Some of the stuff I saw there gave me pause. Not just the stuff from your past but the ability to retain new information. Ever seen that movie Momento? sometimes that comes back after 6 mos to a year. Sometimes it doesnt,

Soberwolf

I understand TerpGirl have you thought about a talking therapy Cbt counseling etc

Sorry if im asking the wrong questions if you ever want to just talk you can msg me anytime

TerpGal

Thanks . Yep I have been in talk therapy on and off for 12 years. Mostly cbt however also been doing some emdr (a specialized therapy for pres) with my current t. Sometimes I wish therapists could actually just tell you what to do instead of asking "well how does that make you feel?"

Soberwolf

Im just in the beginning stages of starting therapy myself if you ever want to talk you can send a msg