Alchemist1978

I had that voice come back in my head and went on a bender.
So worn out. Please help me get through this nightmare again.

So sorry for doing this again.

Alchemist1978

Why cannot I learn. Please god.

strategery

I'm glad you're back alchemist!

SoberLeigh

Welcome back, alchemist.

How about committing to daily posting and reading on SR; it helps to keep sobriety front and center in your mind and life.

Have you ever joined a Class?

(can't seem to find the link; I'll post it when I find it).

have you found the 24 Hour recovery thread?

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...part-44-a.html

doggonecarl

You have a pattern of falling hard after short periods of not drinking? Is that all they are? Periods of not drinking, or are you engaged in some sort of recovery? Because there is a difference.

Belief in a Higher Power (which you seem to have) coupled with the structure and support of AA and working the 12 steps have kept many sober. Get active in your recovery and you can put an end to being sorry for your drinking.

HeartsAfire

24 hr thread saved me & continues to do so every day. Why not join us?

I'm glad you made it back - you're one of the lucky ones.

NeoGuest

I have done the same mate I am a waste of space

Anna

Today is a chance for you to get it right. What happened that caused you to pick up a drink? Learn from this experience and it doesn't have to happen again.

Alchemist1978

I have this pattern. That I keep justify my drinking and that is not working.
I cannot drink normal. I tend to do to excess each time I do drink.

Nonsensical

Ready for a second opinion?

My addiction always told me I was a waste of space; that life is meaningless; that I was meaningless - so I might as well just drink.

My addiction is a liar and a thief.

I stopped listening to the opinions of a known liar and my life improved considerably. I highly recommend it.

SoberLeigh

Here is the link to the Class of March, 2015:

sva777

How long were you sober before this bender?

strategery

The good thing is you recognize the pattern, giving you the ability to break that pattern.

NeoGuest

Not my thread sorry

Soberwolf

You have nothing to be sorry for do learn from this tho alchemist

Good to see you back bud

vinylfever

Hello,

We are all sorry when we slip up, but we pick ourselves back up, shake off the dust and move ahead a little stronger than we were. Once the haze of the hangover passes, it is time for a new plan of action. Unfortunately for me, I did not emerge from my last binge unscathed. I totaled my vehicle and was arrested for a DUI. Thankfully, I did not hurt another soul or damage anyone's property. A terrible lesson and the beginning of an arduous journey to remain sober, get through court and alcohol classes, and get a restricted license for home/work travel during a year long suspension.

Obviously, I don't know your story, but we are all in this mess we call "addiction". It took a punch in the face to wake me up from my daily 12+ drinking habit. Keep posting, get support from people here and in your community. Best of luck !

VF

Altoids

Same here. That 24 hr thread and the folks on it, well, they keep me sane every single day. Please join us.

thomas11

Hi Neoguest, maybe start a thread, so you can talk about it. You're not a waste of space. Start a thread, let everyone that is much wiser than you and I, help out in some way.

thomas11

Hi alchemist, I don't want to pry, but you want help through the nightmare, how long was the bender, is this a slip up or have you been on the night-train for days or weeks? Doesn't really matter I guess, but if you know you are going to experience withdrawal, hang in there. See a doc if necessary, of course. Me personally, no need to apologize, we are human and we make mistakes. You are here, a great first step. Believe in yourself.

Alchemist1978

Thanks for the support everyone. I hate messing up especially when I was doing so well. There has to be a easier way. I hate the withdrawals more and more and cannot continue doing this to myself.