Lost My Beloved Pup and My Mind
For Grace
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Maryland
Posts: 92
Lost My Beloved Pup and My Mind
I haven't strung together a lot of sober days since joining SR but I thought I was doing OK. Almost got to 30 during Jan. And then my big, beautiful, wonderful, selfless, loving, forgiving, all around most amazing animal had to be put down. And I completely fell apart. Like went insane with grief and pain and of course all washed down with buckets of alcohol. I am lashing out at everyone in anger ... that I don't have my dog and because I can't deal with emotions without alcohol. The world seems really small right now. But I did not drink yesterday. And I am not drinking today. If you have a furry one at home give them a big hug today from Grace ... she loved so much, humans and animals alike. And never judged me. I wish I could say the same for myself.
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Mid-Atlantic USA
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I understand Chuck. A few weeks ago, I had to let my 20 year old cat go. It was hard letting go after all those years, and I miss her badly some days, but I look forward to getting a new kitten when the time is right. Hang in there; the grief will pass with a little time.
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Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: New England
Posts: 4,422
So sorry for your loss, Chuck. We have a lot of animal lovers on this site, that's for sure. I lost my dog after barely 2 months of sobriety, and boy, was I grateful I spent at least that much time with her sober. I was able to care for her and be present, even during the horrible day where I had to make the hard decision.
I was angry, too. And so, so sad. I feel you. Wishing you all the best as you get through this. It's hard and it takes a long time, but honor Grace by staying sober and living. In time, when you're ready, go share your life with another dog. You'll have more unconditional love, and it's surely what Grace would want for you.
I was angry, too. And so, so sad. I feel you. Wishing you all the best as you get through this. It's hard and it takes a long time, but honor Grace by staying sober and living. In time, when you're ready, go share your life with another dog. You'll have more unconditional love, and it's surely what Grace would want for you.
A Day at a Time
Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Grand Rapids MI
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I am so sorry for your loss. It is possible to get past grief sober. Drinking only makes a bad situation worse.
Have your beloved Grace look up Cuervo (profile picture) she loves to play with other dogs and can show Grace the ropes of heaven.
Have your beloved Grace look up Cuervo (profile picture) she loves to play with other dogs and can show Grace the ropes of heaven.
Catch and Release
Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Crazy Canuck
Posts: 441
I am deeply sorry for your loss. I know how much it hurts and it just tears you apart. Our pets love us unconditionally and when they go the pain is enormous.
If you have not ever read this poem, please do so, and I hope you can find some comfort in the words.
Rainbow Bridge:
https://rainbowsbridge.com/poem.htm
Tears and hugs,
Calicofish
If you have not ever read this poem, please do so, and I hope you can find some comfort in the words.
Rainbow Bridge:
https://rainbowsbridge.com/poem.htm
Tears and hugs,
Calicofish
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
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I'm so very sorry Chuck.
Grace was blessed to have you for a Dad. You gave her a good life and lots of love, just like she gave to you.
It's so hard for us when we lose our beloved pets. Kona & Kai get extra hugs tonight.
Grace was blessed to have you for a Dad. You gave her a good life and lots of love, just like she gave to you.
It's so hard for us when we lose our beloved pets. Kona & Kai get extra hugs tonight.
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: San Francisco, CA
Posts: 174
I'm so sorry Chuck.
I can relate to your post. I have had a rocky road trying to get away from alcohol - and that was under relatively calm, stable conditions. In the face of some recent losses, I've found myself feeling like I can't handle it sober. Your post gave me some encouragement in that you're remaining sober today.
I can relate to your post. I have had a rocky road trying to get away from alcohol - and that was under relatively calm, stable conditions. In the face of some recent losses, I've found myself feeling like I can't handle it sober. Your post gave me some encouragement in that you're remaining sober today.
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“We who choose to surround ourselves
with lives even more temporary than our
own, live within a fragile circle;
easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps,
we would still live no other way.
We cherish memory as the only
certain immortality, never fully
understanding the necessary plan.”
― Irving Townsend
with lives even more temporary than our
own, live within a fragile circle;
easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps,
we would still live no other way.
We cherish memory as the only
certain immortality, never fully
understanding the necessary plan.”
― Irving Townsend
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Join Date: Jul 2014
Posts: 1,355
I understand your pain. My dog was recently dx'd with cancer, and the thought of him dying tore me up. Im sorry for your loss. Your dog will be looking down on you, and your dog would want nothing more than for you to be sober.
Cute pup. Remember her in her good times, and I am sure she was happy to have spent the 11 years of her life with you.
Im from MD too... nice to meet you.
Cute pup. Remember her in her good times, and I am sure she was happy to have spent the 11 years of her life with you.
Im from MD too... nice to meet you.
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