Fighting The Urge
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Fighting The Urge
I've quit drinking a few times in the past. Once for about a month and a couple of times for a day or two. I know full well I can't moderate and know, for me at least, abstinence is the only way.
So, I've cut in half my alcohol consumption by about half for the last two days and as of right now I haven't had a drink in about 18 hours. I'm experiencing only very mild withdrawal symptoms. And by mild I mean just that restless I really want a freakin drink feeling. And slightly shaky. No sweats or heart beating out of my chest.
A voice inside my head tells me "just have a couple of drinks to ease this so you can sleep" but I'd rather not drink anything today unless I start feeling BAD. I'd like today to become my "sober date".
So come on, yall. Help me to shut this voice off! I'm becoming the praying type again so I'm going to pray for a few. Thanks in advance for any encouragement or helpful hints.
So, I've cut in half my alcohol consumption by about half for the last two days and as of right now I haven't had a drink in about 18 hours. I'm experiencing only very mild withdrawal symptoms. And by mild I mean just that restless I really want a freakin drink feeling. And slightly shaky. No sweats or heart beating out of my chest.
A voice inside my head tells me "just have a couple of drinks to ease this so you can sleep" but I'd rather not drink anything today unless I start feeling BAD. I'd like today to become my "sober date".
So come on, yall. Help me to shut this voice off! I'm becoming the praying type again so I'm going to pray for a few. Thanks in advance for any encouragement or helpful hints.
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Welcome to SR!!
My suggestion is play it through, what a couple of drinks would lead you to. For an alcoholic, a couple of drinks is only a tease. It takes more than that.
Remember why you wanted to quit. Quite sure you didn't choose to quit without a few bad consequences?
I'm not an alcoholic, my DOC was crack. I still went through the same process. "Just one or two" let to more and more and more. I think, no matter what we abused, we have similar feelings.
I hope you keep reading and posting. I think it's GREAT that you are reaching out here. I can tell you this site kept me from using more than a few times in early recovery and I hope you find the same.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
My suggestion is play it through, what a couple of drinks would lead you to. For an alcoholic, a couple of drinks is only a tease. It takes more than that.
Remember why you wanted to quit. Quite sure you didn't choose to quit without a few bad consequences?
I'm not an alcoholic, my DOC was crack. I still went through the same process. "Just one or two" let to more and more and more. I think, no matter what we abused, we have similar feelings.
I hope you keep reading and posting. I think it's GREAT that you are reaching out here. I can tell you this site kept me from using more than a few times in early recovery and I hope you find the same.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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Welcome to the family! 
Please don't drink. It will mean you have to go thru this all over again, and it gets worse each time you quit. Make a list of the reasons why you want to live sober. When you feel like drinking, read your list.
Please don't drink. It will mean you have to go thru this all over again, and it gets worse each time you quit. Make a list of the reasons why you want to live sober. When you feel like drinking, read your list. 
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The first 24 hours are always crazy and its hard, but you are in fact doing this. Even if you feel "bad" don't let that be your excuse to drink. It simply isn't worth going through this again, I guarantee you each successive day will feel better.
If you can, try to get out and keep your mind off the drink. Sitting there just contemplating it, or listening to your urges will make you feel worse. Good luck my friend, welcome to the forum we're glad to have you. Keep on keeping on.
If you can, try to get out and keep your mind off the drink. Sitting there just contemplating it, or listening to your urges will make you feel worse. Good luck my friend, welcome to the forum we're glad to have you. Keep on keeping on.
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Nice first step! Things might get harder but who knows maybe it wont be hatd for you. But eventually if you do keep drinking it will get hard and you will experience the nasties. I hope you dont get to that point. Quitting now is always better than moderating or cutting down more often than not it just doesn't work for us.
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Welp, I made it through the night! It was very hard to sleep but I got a few hours. I feel ok this morning, just groggy. There's a little fear, too. My hardest craving come at night, and with boredom. Fortunately, as an alcoholic theres a million things I've neglected in my drunkiness that I can keep busy with. Mostly I'm excited, though. I feel like this is the beginning of the rest of my life as long as I don't drink. That simple? I don't know. But I will not drink today.
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Originally Posted by NewJosh 
So come on, yall. Help me to shut this voice off!
It must be starved.
Great job getting through another day. Keep it going!
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